Help Should I abort SN plan tonight?

[ifihadnever]

Hi,

I could really use some help. Should I abandon my SN protocol for day as well have fasted for 24 hours - unintentionally, I just haven't been able to eat. Overcome with fear and anxiety.

I'm Riddled with anxiety anyway which causes great Nausea in everyday life.

I decided to do the 48 hour protocol to get as much meto as possible. But it's all taken its toll, I've barely slept last night and only managed 1 bite of bread today which made me feel very sick.

I think fear will always take over, as will sickness which is why I wanted to do the 48 protocol to have as much meto in my body as possible, hence I took the 48 hour protocol. But it's too late to eat something now (and will barely get anything down). Should I abort plans today and try just doing the 3x10mg meto on another day?

Clearly, I'm packing which is natural. I can't have a failure so it's kinda do or die. Ironically, I'm pretty hungry now.

What do people think?

Thank you so much for any advice.

 

[Crow_88]

Well, I think it's really up to you. What's in your heart? Ask yourself, what do you really want? I can't answer for you. But I would suggest being really honest with yourself about what you want. To me it does sound like you are terrified. That can't bode well for what's coming.

 

[ifihadnever]

Thanks for your reply. I am terrifying. I'm also terrified or living. Actually I'm terrified of everything which no doesn't bode well. From what I've read it 'can' be relatively peaceful. I'm just terrified of it failing. Last thinfn I want is to end up in a hospital or psycharist ward. Fear must be normal. I don't know how people overcome it (I'm fearful leaving the house so my fear radar is obviously quite high which is problematic obviously). I just don't know what to do. Sorry for the vent. I appreciate your reply.

 

[idiotmother]

Thanks for your reply. I am terrifying. I'm also terrified or living. Actually I'm terrified of everything which no doesn't bode well. From what I've read it 'can' be relatively peaceful. I'm just terrified of it failing. Last thinfn I want is to end up in a hospital or psycharist ward. Fear must be normal. I don't know how people overcome it (I'm fearful leaving the house so my fear radar is obviously quite high which is problematic obviously). I just don't know what to do. Sorry for the vent. I appreciate your reply.

It must be terrifying readying yourself for this procedure. You can try it another day if you're having second thoughts or too afraid. Sounds like you had a bad reaction to the meto? As long as your Sn is legit it is quite unlikely you will fail.

 

[darksouls]

however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[Crow_88]

Thanks for your reply. I am terrifying. I'm also terrified or living. Actually I'm terrified of everything which no doesn't bode well. From what I've read it 'can' be relatively peaceful. I'm just terrified of it failing. Last thinfn I want is to end up in a hospital or psycharist ward. Fear must be normal. I don't know how people overcome it (I'm fearful leaving the house so my fear radar is obviously quite high which is problematic obviously). I just don't know what to do. Sorry for the vent. I appreciate your reply.

I don't see any venting here. And even if it was, that's just fine! I understand your fear. I deal with a lot of it, myself.

 

[ifihadnever]

I don't see any venting here. And even if it was, that's just fine! I understand your fear. I deal with a lot of it, myself.

Thank you.

 

[rozeske]

I'm sorry you're in this much pain. I know all too well the nausea and stomach pain that comes with immense anxiety. I wouldn't wish it on anyone and i know it's what awaits me too. That said you should do what feels right and comfortable to you in this moment. You owe it to yourself to be as comfortable as can be even under these circumstances. All the best to you whatever you decide.

 

[ilovenewyork]

You can always do it tomorrow

 

[ifihadnever]

I'm sorry you're in this much pain. I know all too well the nausea and stomach pain that comes with immense anxiety. I wouldn't wish it on anyone and i know it's what awaits me too. That said you should do what feels right and comfortable to you in this moment. You owe it to yourself to be as comfortable as can be even under these circumstances. All the best to you whatever you decide.

Thank you so much for your kindness

 

[Baisley]

I think you should live and send me your SN or at least share it. All jokes aside it really is up to you and what you want to do. Good luck in whatever decision you choose to make.

 

[ifihadnever]

I think you should live and send me your SN or at least share it. All jokes aside it really is up to you and what you want to do. Good luck in whatever decision you choose to make.

Thank you. I've no idea right now. Dying would be the kinder option but the fear is incomprehensible at the minute. I'm not sure tonight will be my night.. ..