should ctb within a week

[carterprobs]

I'm going to wait until next Friday, when my name change will hopefully be finalized. My family's going to bury me under the wrong name anyway, but I think it will be nice to know that it's legally changed while I die.

It gives me time to get things in order. My best friend is being abused. Bad. He sent me a picture of a sink full of blood. He's engaged to them. They spent all his savings. I know they'll probably spend all mine, too, but maybe he can hide the money from them or something. It's like fate because the amount he had, I've got almost the same amount. Just a bit more. I'm going to give him the title and keys to my car too. I don't know much about this stuff, but I think I can fill out the back like I sold it to him or something.

The SN is on the way, should be here Tuesday. I don't have anything to prevent vomit. I wish I did. But I don't puke, so it'll probably be fine.

I wish there was more I could do for him. But I can't save him just like he can't save me. Maybe the money will help at least, make it easier.

 

[soul2realm]

I am sorry for the situation you are in. But life is whimsical like that. But if i may ask, why the name change and why now?

 

[carterprobs]

I am sorry for the situation you are in. But life is whimsical like that. But if i may ask, why the name change and why now?

I have not gone by my current legal name since I was a young child. I have been working on changing it and my legal gender marker for all of this year. It's a lot of waiting and paperwork. I wasn't strongly planning on ctb until a few days ago, so I figure it's worth waiting an extra few days, since this was important to me once, and I worked and fought hard for this.

 

[soul2realm]

I wish you all the best with the legal paperwork and stuff. If you ever like to maybe delve into your situation, how it all landed you to take the ctb decision, you can message here.
I am hoping to do as well..

 

[carterprobs]

I wish you all the best with the legal paperwork and stuff. If you ever like to maybe delve into your situation, how it all landed you to take the ctb decision, you can message here.
I am hoping to do as well..

I don't know why I decided to ctb. I guess when I found out he was engaged to them, I decided. I know I can't save him or help him. They are going to kill him one day. They already pulled a knife on him and threatened him. They are getting worse, fast.

What made you decide to ctb?

 

[soul2realm]

I don't know why I decided to ctb. I guess when I found out he was engaged to them, I decided. I know I can't save him or help him. They are going to kill him one day. They already pulled a knife on him and threatened him. They are getting worse, fast.

What made you decide to ctb?

Who pulled the knife?? It sounds as if he seriously needs to get out of there. Is there any help from the authorities?
My CTB is long due now. After my failed first attempt, I have been garnering strength to try again.

 

[carterprobs]

Who pulled the knife?? It sounds as if he seriously needs to get out of there. Is there any help from the authorities?
My CTB is long due now. After my failed first attempt, I have been garnering strength to try again.

His fiancée pulled a knife on him. Yeah he needs to get out. But something keeps him there, he feels trapped. There is no help from the authorities. I am hoping maybe the money I give him will help, but I think his fiancée will just spent it again if they know he has it. They want him to have nothing so he is trapped, I think.

I hope the best for you and your CTB.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

So sorry for you and your friend.
I wish you peace and freedom from this horrible planet.

 

[soul2realm]

His fiancée pulled a knife on him. Yeah he needs to get out. But something keeps him there, he feels trapped. There is no help from the authorities. I am hoping maybe the money I give him will help, but I think his fiancée will just spent it again if they know he has it. They want him to have nothing so he is trapped, I think.

I hope the best for you and your CTB.

Giving money is not the solution. I mean you are right if they find out, the torture will escalate. I am noy sure what your relation is with him, but at this point losing a friend may not seem the viable solution. Again, please don't hate me for this advice as i am no expert.

 

[carterprobs]

Giving money is not the solution. I mean you are right if they find out, the torture will escalate. I am noy sure what your relation is with him, but at this point losing a friend may not seem the viable solution. Again, please don't hate me for this advice as i am no expert.

I don't hate you but I also don't understand what you mean. Maybe you can explain it or reword it? I'm sorry I'm just confused

 

[soul2realm]

I don't hate you but I also don't understand what you mean. Maybe you can explain it or reword it? I'm sorry I'm just confused

I mean with you gone, in whom will he vent his pain. I have nobody, and that is one of the primary reasons that got me to this point. I genuinely feel that you care about him and and that proves you got a big heart. So maybe, try finding a way out of this situation. But he has to do his part as well. Its not on your shoulder to carry anyone.

 

[carterprobs]

I mean with you gone, in whom will he vent his pain. I have nobody, and that is one of the primary reasons that got me to this point. I genuinely feel that you care about him and and that proves you got a big heart. So maybe, try finding a way out of this situation. But he has to do his part as well. It's not on your shoulder to carry anyone.

I understand now.

Me being gone doesn't matter. If I was able to be there for him, I would not do this. He is isolated. Partly because his fiancée acts crazy to keep him alone, and partly because he isolates himself when he is hurting. He thinks he could be a burden. And he gets too overwhelmed and depressed because of everything happening, that he can't even text or talk or hangout.

I saw him a few days ago, this was the day before I found out he was engaged. But before that we hadn't talked in months. So I don't think my absence will mean that much. Probably it will be something, he is still my best friend after all, but not much. And he is such a good person and many, many people care about him.

But he can't leave, for some reason. I understand him, kind of, because I was in an abusive relationship for a very long time, too. But I can't watch him marry them. I just can't do it. I know it means he'll never leave. Me and him both have said that they will probably kill him one day. I can't stay and watch it happen. I know it might be selfish. I still can't do it.

 

[soul2realm]

I understand now.

Me being gone doesn't matter. If I was able to be there for him, I would not do this. He is isolated. Partly because his fiancée acts crazy to keep him alone, and partly because he isolates himself when he is hurting. He thinks he could be a burden. And he gets too overwhelmed and depressed because of everything happening, that he can't even text or talk or hangout.

I saw him a few days ago, this was the day before I found out he was engaged. But before that we hadn't talked in months. So I don't think my absence will mean that much. Probably it will be something, he is still my best friend after all, but not much. And he is such a good person and many, many people care about him.

But he can't leave, for some reason. I understand him, kind of, because I was in an abusive relationship for a very long time, too. But I can't watch him marry them. I just can't do it. I know it means he'll never leave. Me and him both have said that they will probably kill him one day. I can't stay and watch it happen. I know it might be selfish. I still can't do it.

Life sucks, no second thoughts about it!
But caring, kindness, looking after each other, love - all these attributes they exist in this life itself. I wish the big guy upstairs does something about us all.
I know all these are just words but hang in there. I hope something good happens - whatever it might be.