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coconutsandalwood

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Oct 13, 2022
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A few nights ago I attempted short drop hanging for maybe the 20th time over the course of the past several years. Each previous time, using a belt secured by closing my closet door, I had ended up just becoming extremely uncomfortable and never feeling that I was anywhere close to passing out. Despite my numerous previous failures, I was always hopeful that the next time I would finally figure it out.

Late Saturday night I decided it was time to give it another shot. I still have no idea what it was that I did differently, but shortly after closing the door on the loose end of the belt and kneeling on the ground while leaning forward, I passed out. It happened so quickly that I hardly remember spending anytime waiting for it to happen; significantly different than all of my past attempts when I would spend anywhere from 45 seconds to almost 2 minutes just waiting in vain for something to happen.

When I woke up, I knew I was having a much more intense than normal dream, though I immediately forgot what it was about. The thought of trying to remember what the dream was about was quickly replaced by an extreme discomfort in my chest that I had never felt before. I thought that opening the door to release the belt would relieve the pain, but it didn't change anything. It took several minutes before it began to fade away before eventually disappearing altogether. During the time that I was sitting on the floor, hoping the pain in my chest would end, I noticed that there was blood on the wall and covering much of the carpet near the baseboard. I was also coughing up blood and it was coming out my nose if I exhaled out of it too strongly. After finally getting up to go to the bathroom and looking in the mirror, I couldn't believe how purple my face was and the amount of blood covering it. Even the white parts of my eyes were almost halfway red.

Apparently, while I was blacked out I bit my tongue extraordinarily hard because even as I write this days later, it's still sore. I also have marks(some kind of cut, but it's more like from new shoes that are too tight) on one of my toes and on the opposite ankle that I have no idea how they got there.

I wrote this to ask if anyone else has ever had a similar experience, and/or knows why I woke up as opposed to passing away, where it came from and why there was so much blood, what the intense pain in my chest was or where the marks on my feet came from. I've never gotten so close before, and am still in disbelief that I could have went through all of that and not died. Just one more thing in life that I can't do right.
 
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beyondgone

Student
Mar 3, 2023
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Where was the buckle at the front or back of the neck? Maybe convulsions and SI woke you up?
 
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coconutsandalwood

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Oct 13, 2022
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Where was the buckle at the front or back of the neck? Maybe convulsions and SI woke you up?
The back. That was my only idea as well. Curious as to how others have been successful with this method, assuming they also experienced convulsions.
 
MidnightDream

MidnightDream

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Sep 5, 2022
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Survival instinct is a lot stronger than I think many of us give it credit for. It's not just mental, it's physiological too
 
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missingpeace

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Feb 4, 2023
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Bloody hell, what I don't understand is how do people wake up after they pass out, is it because the strap on the neck gets dislodged and the arteries start getting blood again somehow? You tried the best you could and didn't get the outcome you wanted, that is highly disappointing, the fact that you have a hurt tongue is pretty shit, too..
 
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freelifexit

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Nov 7, 2021
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This is not first time I read that people woke up during partial.
 
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Asphyxiater

Member
Mar 7, 2023
44
I hope you come back to this thread. Were you breathing while in the moment your vision started to regain? When I tried self-strangulation, that happened and I regained consciousness. It felt weird because I wasn't the one breathing, like it was a ghost doing it for me.
 

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