Shoot myself on trail rails

[superhero]

I have a 12/76 double barrel in my possession, still scared shitless of surviving in a considerably worse state than the already unacceptable state I am in now.

What is your opinion to lie down on train rails approx. 5 min before the train arrives, do my thing with the shotgun and then wait for the train to do the rest.

I know it's traumatising to the conductor, but a least he will know that the person he went over was most likely already dead prior to the collisision.

Ah and combine the thing with blood thinners, I have plenty of those, since I suffered from a deep vein thrombosis.

 

[darksouls]

hope you find relief from suffering

 

[thaelyana]

I have a 12/76 double barrel in my possession, still scared shitless of surviving in a considerably worse state than the already unacceptable state I am in now.

What is your opinion to lie down on train rails approx. 5 min before the train arrives, do my thing with the shotgun and then wait for the train to do the rest.

I know it's traumatising to the conductor, but a least he will know that the person he went over was most likely already dead prior to the collisision.

Ah and combine the thing with blood thinners, I have plenty of those, since I suffered from a deep vein thrombosis.

Why do you want to accumulate the 2 shocks? Are you afraid that the first one won't work?

 

[superhero]

hope you find relief from suffering

Thank you for your kind words! This means a lot to me <3

Why do you want to accumulate the 2 shocks? Are you afraid that the first one won't work?

Precisely, I'm worried of missing the brain stem or any other vital cerebral area. There's simply no proper statisticd out there on the likelihood of actually CTBing with shotgun alone and there seem to be so many factors that could go wrong...

 

[FishRain3469]

I can understand your reasoning ( shotgun being my method as well)

Thoughts and prayers to you in whatever may happen. ♥

 

[Life'sA6itch]

Why do you want to accumulate the 2 shocks? Are you afraid that the first one won't work?

Most likely so. Guns aimed correctly are very reliable however the slightest mm off and you will survive with horrible injuries and loads of need for care and medical debts atop all that. Even your own nerves/mental state could make the difference between ctb success or failure. I think it's a good plan, messy & possibly painful if the gun doesn't immediately kill, but terribly small chance of failure if all 3 aspects come together (blood thinners, gunshot, train).

I wish we didn't have to do all this BS just to get lights out. It absolutely mystifies me that man will "humanely euthanize" a scaly, furry or feathered animal yet, they demand other humans suffer through any types of hell thrown at them when that person wants to ctb. I hope OP finds peace, it is all we seek.

 

[thaelyana]

There are no safe areas?? The heart?

 

[superhero]

There are no safe areas?? The heart?

Apart from being (most likely) excruciatingly painful, a shot to the heart could (at least theoretically) result in self-tamponading laceratings and a slow bleed out, with even potential salvavability if prompt medical care is administered. I believe a properly angled intraoral shot to the brainstem is my best bet - however, I would like reduce survival risk (which would of course be coupled with severe functional and aesthetic deficits) to a mininum.