I am interested in the different types of benzos. I am only a layman but I know benzos are very dangerous.
Here seems to an informative website about benzos.
delphihealthgroup.com
It warns about their highly addictive nature.
I am taking a z-medication and sometimes a benzos for roundabout 1,5 years. However when I have vacation and on weekends I don't take them. I give me breaks so that I build less of a tolerance.
I am very scared about addiction but they are the reason why I am able to attend college without becoming manic or psychotic. I talked about the issue with several professionals. Two therapists who knew this is my last chance to get the qualification for a job supported me. I am glad about that. It is hellish dangerous and could easily kill myself (to become benzo addict) but solely because of these medication I am able to attend college.
I am very glad my psychiatrist trusts me. I am very self-disciplined and determined not to abuse them. I almost only take the lowest dosage and only when I need them. (not just for feeling better.)
Many psychiatrists "fear-mongered" about them towards me. (Not sure whether it is appropriate to use that word due to the fact benzos probably ruined many lives.)
I know it is very dangerous and in most cases it backfires. I would even say my current psychiatrist might be a little bit too liberal.
But my first psychiatrist was an asshole and not very competent. He did not even want to give me 5-10 pills for emergencies. (due to that I had to go to an emergency clinic when an horrible life event happened the trip stressed me further.)
He told me this is something you are just not able to control. So far I have managed it. Maybe what I am doing with my psychiatrist is a little bit irresponsible. However I barely have alternatives.
Both sides of the extreme are probably not good. He did not even want to give me 5 pills. What did he think will I do when I used them going immediately to a drug dealer to get more? I have the feeling some professionals are a little bit too overprotective. (I am only a layman so maybe don't listen to my thoughts)
In the past they were too liberal and now most of them turn very restrictive.
Another reason I had the idea for this thread was a David Foster Wallace story. I really love his literature but on drugs we had diametrical approaches. In a story he talks about someone who uses (ativan). I was interested which drug that was. It is another name for the benzo that I sometimes take (lorazepam). I think he called it an harmless tranquilizer without risk to get addicted. I had to laugh at that a lot. DFW considered drugs as way too harmless and in this instance it is clear misinformation. Maybe the fault was a mediocre research or he wrote that story when the dangers were not publicly known. I had to chuckle because I am so fucking anxious to get addicted by it because I know of the devastating consequences and he just considers it as harmless.
What were your experiences? Good, bad or horrible? The withdrawal process sounds hellish from what I have read.
Here seems to an informative website about benzos.
What Are The Differences Between Benzodiazepines? | Delphi
Benzodiazepines fall into different categories, including short-acting, intermediate-acting, and long-acting benzodiazepines.
delphihealthgroup.com
It warns about their highly addictive nature.
I am taking a z-medication and sometimes a benzos for roundabout 1,5 years. However when I have vacation and on weekends I don't take them. I give me breaks so that I build less of a tolerance.
I am very scared about addiction but they are the reason why I am able to attend college without becoming manic or psychotic. I talked about the issue with several professionals. Two therapists who knew this is my last chance to get the qualification for a job supported me. I am glad about that. It is hellish dangerous and could easily kill myself (to become benzo addict) but solely because of these medication I am able to attend college.
I am very glad my psychiatrist trusts me. I am very self-disciplined and determined not to abuse them. I almost only take the lowest dosage and only when I need them. (not just for feeling better.)
Many psychiatrists "fear-mongered" about them towards me. (Not sure whether it is appropriate to use that word due to the fact benzos probably ruined many lives.)
I know it is very dangerous and in most cases it backfires. I would even say my current psychiatrist might be a little bit too liberal.
But my first psychiatrist was an asshole and not very competent. He did not even want to give me 5-10 pills for emergencies. (due to that I had to go to an emergency clinic when an horrible life event happened the trip stressed me further.)
He told me this is something you are just not able to control. So far I have managed it. Maybe what I am doing with my psychiatrist is a little bit irresponsible. However I barely have alternatives.
Both sides of the extreme are probably not good. He did not even want to give me 5 pills. What did he think will I do when I used them going immediately to a drug dealer to get more? I have the feeling some professionals are a little bit too overprotective. (I am only a layman so maybe don't listen to my thoughts)
In the past they were too liberal and now most of them turn very restrictive.
Another reason I had the idea for this thread was a David Foster Wallace story. I really love his literature but on drugs we had diametrical approaches. In a story he talks about someone who uses (ativan). I was interested which drug that was. It is another name for the benzo that I sometimes take (lorazepam). I think he called it an harmless tranquilizer without risk to get addicted. I had to laugh at that a lot. DFW considered drugs as way too harmless and in this instance it is clear misinformation. Maybe the fault was a mediocre research or he wrote that story when the dangers were not publicly known. I had to chuckle because I am so fucking anxious to get addicted by it because I know of the devastating consequences and he just considers it as harmless.
What were your experiences? Good, bad or horrible? The withdrawal process sounds hellish from what I have read.
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