Sh with a lighter

[I won't be Swedish]

I'm using a few lighters but I feel like it's not doing anything. I'm just putting my hand close to the flame and try to "resist" more and more, but will this leave marks on my skin? Is it as dumb as I think it is..?

 

[undecided]

Why though ?

 

[I won't be Swedish]

Why what?

 

[hermestrimegistus]

This will definitely leave scars. I used to take a lighter and heat a hairclip and then burn myself with it. But if youre putting your skin close enough to the lighter itself you will leave marks. I dont recommend. I'm not suggesting anything but hold some ice cubes in your hands. It kind of burns but youre not disfiguring yourself all that youre going to do is have to clean up the water. Dont self harm OP. The real way to harm yourself is to continue living without any sense of relief. Thats how you really hurt yourself. Theres just nothing to show for it and there's no pleasure

 

[blightoftheavenues]

what i uses to do when i was young was hol the flame until the cage was glowing, then press it against my skin. it leaves little smiley faces behind, though honestly its not that painful in terms of sh

 

[I won't be Swedish]

This will definitely leave scars. I used to take a lighter and heat a hairclip and then burn myself with it. But if youre putting your skin close enough to the lighter itself you will leave marks. I dont recommend. I'm not suggesting anything but hold some ice cubes in your hands. It kind of burns but youre not disfiguring yourself all that youre going to do is have to clean up the water. Dont self harm OP. The real way to harm yourself is to continue living without any sense of relief. Thats how you really hurt yourself. Theres just nothing to show for it and there's no pleasure

It's the only way I found to try to not suffer only in my head. It kinds of transfer the pain I guess. I've been told I'm going to be crazy but I should control it, there's no reason I can't control this.

what i uses to do when i was young was hol the flame until the cage was glowing, then press it against my skin. it leaves little smiley faces behind, though honestly its not that painful in terms of sh

What I'm doing isn't that painful, my hand is a few cm away from the flame. But instinctively I put my hand back when it's too much, even do I try not to

 

[hermestrimegistus]

It's the only way I found to try to not suffer only in my head. It kinds of transfer the pain I guess. I've been told I'm going to be crazy but I should control it, there's no reason I can't control this.


What I'm doing isn't that painful, my hand is a few cm away from the flame. But instinctively I put my hand back when it's too much, even do I try not to

Hey, I'm not judging. I self harmed for years. Sometimes to punish myself for certain behaviors or thought patterns, sometimes because it just made me feel good. But at a certain point it just stops working. And then all you have left is disfigured skin and nothing but memories of hurting yourself. There are better ways to get rid of the way you feel. I promise you I really dont think this will help for very long. Every time I wear short sleeves and look at my left forearm or wear shorts that show my upper thighs I am forced to remember the countless hours I spent trying to punish myself or take away the pain. The pain is still there. So are the scars. It doesnt work

 

[I won't be Swedish]

Hey, I'm not judging. I self harmed for years. Sometimes to punish myself for certain behaviors or thought patterns, sometimes because it just made me feel good. But at a certain point it just stops working. And then all you have left is disfigured skin and nothing but memories of hurting yourself. There are better ways to get rid of the way you feel. I promise you I really dont think this will help for very long. Every time I wear short sleeves and look at my left forearm or wear shorts that show my upper thighs I am forced to remember the countless hours I spent trying to punish myself or take away the pain. The pain is still there. So are the scars. It doesnt work

I'm just desperately trying to change my mind before ctb. I've never done this before so I feel really stupid, but at the same time it distracts me. Otherwise I'm just stuck with my thoughts and that's way worse. I feel like I have to try this because most of the things I enjoyed before just don't make me feel happy anymore. And because I've never sh myself before, I guess I'm doing it "wrong" and so it doesn't leave anything. My hands only hurt on the moment when they get too hot, in total it's only been a few minutes I guess. There are no physical scars and the one in my head.. I don't really have a head anymore, so it doesn't really matter I guess. I've gone and I'm going through harder thoughts like suicidal ones, so hey, it can't be worse

 

[hermestrimegistus]

I'm just desperately trying to change my mind before ctb. I've never done this before so I feel really stupid, but at the same time it distracts me. Otherwise I'm just stuck with my thoughts and that's way worse. I feel like I have to try this because most of the things I enjoyed before just don't make me feel happy anymore. And because I've never sh myself before, I guess I'm doing it "wrong" and so it doesn't leave anything. My hands only hurt on the moment when they get too hot, in total it's only been a few minutes I guess. There are no physical scars and the one in my head.. I don't really have a head anymore, so it doesn't really matter I guess. I've gone and I'm going through harder thoughts like suicidal ones, so hey, it can't be worse

There is no "right" way to hurt yourself. But if you cant help yourself there are less harmful/damaging ways to go about it. Snap a rubber band around your wrist. Hold some ice cubes. Take a freezing cold shower. I really dont reccommend burning yourself. Personally I've been here and let me tell you no amount of cutting or burning took away any of my suicidal thoughts. So if you think this is going to help with that I'm sorry but you are wrong. Write down every thought you have and destroy the paper. Get out this energy without taking it out on yourself/your body. Its not going to solve your problem. I wish there was an easy solution. But this definitely isnt it

 

[I won't be Swedish]

There is no "right" way to hurt yourself. But if you cant help yourself there are less harmful/damaging ways to go about it. Snap a rubber band around your wrist. Hold some ice cubes. Take a freezing cold shower. I really dont reccommend burning yourself. Personally I've been here and let me tell you no amount of cutting or burning took away any of my suicidal thoughts. So if you think this is going to help with that I'm sorry but you are wrong. Write down every thought you have and destroy the paper. Get out this energy without taking it out on yourself/your body. Its not going to solve your problem. I wish there was an easy solution. But this definitely isnt it

This is one of the fastest and most effective solution I found, when I have the energy to do it.. I don't know what else to do. I wanna do something, I wanna die, but because I can't really do it I have this anger in me, and I have a few reasons to want to hurt my body.. And the worst part is that I know this isn't reasonable and I keep doing it almost by habit now, but if was reasonable I wouldn't even do that or be there. I'm a bit lost ^^'