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suicidesergal

suicidesergal

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Dec 17, 2025
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I've been having suicide thoughts since i was 13. Lately I've been dreaming of a sexual suicide, ordered by a master or dominant for their enjoyment.

Is that normal?
 
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INYGTRMTFMO

INYGTRMTFMO

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I wouldn't say it's especially common, but that doesn't make it unheard of, and, even if it were, that doesn't make it a "bad" or "wrong".
 
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suicidesergal

suicidesergal

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Dec 17, 2025
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I wouldn't say it's especially common, but that doesn't make it unheard of, and, even if it were, that doesn't make it a "bad" or "wrong".
Well i have a specific gateway about it and almost went through with it today. I want ti but hold back at the last moment.
You can't really label types of suicide into normal or not normal.
Abnormal then. Not standard model.
 
hmnow

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I sometimes have had sexual feelings during urges to kill myself. I'd have also practised auto asphyxiation at times hoping I'd go the past point of consciousnes.

As I understand it. It's relatively common desire to mix suicide with something sexual. We are shy about how these things interact
 
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HangMan123

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Nov 13, 2025
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Sorry if this is kind of obvious, but what's meant by a "sexual suicide?" How are you supposed to kill yourself by having sex? Like…Is the guy gonna be wearing that contraption from Se7en?
 
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monetpompo

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Sorry if this is kind of obvious, but what's meant by a "sexual suicide?" How are you supposed to kill yourself by having sex?
ordered by a master or dominant for their enjoyment.

the poster means killing themselves for someone else's pleasure. like someone's jerking you off while you kill yourself or pleasuring themselves because they enjoy watching you die. i've had similar thoughts. it's kind of like how sadomasochism connects to dominant and submissive bdsm roles. self harm, being hurt by others, and degradation can also make people feel aroused.
 
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kilowatt

kilowatt

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Sep 9, 2023
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I've assisted someone on their way out the way you picture it. It's a risky thing to attempt (depending on your method) as most people tend to focus on the arousal rather than getting the suicide part right, so they fail. I'd call such fail more traumatizing than an average dying focused one.
It's optimal to keep the two separated if you ask me. There's plenty research on safe ways to go about autoerotic asphyxiation without crossing the border of losing control. But I firmly believe a successful suicide is a calculated one so there's middle grounds you can look into.
 
Gustav Hartmann

Gustav Hartmann

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Aug 28, 2021
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For most people killing oneself is not normal.
The difference between "normal" and sexual suicide: In case of "normal" suicide the state of beeing dead is the aim and the process of dying is a necessary evil. In case of sexual suicide, wich is a form of extrem masochism, the process of dying is the aim and the state of beeing dead is an inevitable side effect.
 
Alpacachino

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Nov 26, 2025
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I've been having suicide thoughts since i was 13. Lately I've been dreaming of a sexual suicide, ordered by a master or dominant for their enjoyment.

Is that normal?


Quite a few people do that. I found out about this case on this very site.Google sonia exelby.
 
Gangrel

Gangrel

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Jul 25, 2024
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there is the case of that guy who was into being beheaded so he was masturbating while a guy cut his head off with a butcher knife, the video leaked to the dark web and everything
 
somewhatdeadly

somewhatdeadly

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Jun 6, 2025
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dude stop with your bullshit. there are people with geniuene problems here. stop making dumb posts to disturb people as if our lifes arent bad enough to end up here. geniuenly what the actual fuck?
 

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