Sex with a therapist. Anyone with a similar experience and did it help delay your ctb decision?

[Brave_it_Shiru]

This is no diary but hey...since everyone around me talks about talking to someone about my mental health...I want to share this.

I, in no means, want to land him in any trouble as I was so infatuated with him.

Started when I was threatened with admission into a facility (by my mom?) if I did not "talk to someone".

This therapist met me at my worst (messy hair, unmatched clothes, dead eyes etc) yet we started to flirt a bit. He'd call me for hours every night to see how I was and my sessions became very exciting. A few days later, we were organising where to meet and all...a span of about 2weeks and I forgot about ctb.

I genuinely thought we were dating until I asked him point blank if he had a GF and he said yes. Immediately, I started to withdraw and missed two sessions. After this, he apologised for our relationship and completely ghosted me to a point where he left the hospital to work elsewhere.

I felt so confused. I felt so jealous and angry at him for withholding this information. A part of me thinks I would have continued with the relationship had he told me before I asked. And to date, a part of me still thinks of him with a lot of fondness.

Years later and I find myself back to the beginning (ready to ctb) and I wonder if he was a recovery method after all...

 

[Amakishiyo]

This is absolutely illegal for a properly licensed therapist to do, you should have or should report him to proper authorities, he will lose his job and rightfully so.

 

[Brave_it_Shiru]

I would not want to cause him any harm and that is why I never told anyone. Everything is illegal today anyways IMO

 

[Amakishiyo]

He harmed you by doing this, it's morally wrong in so many ways to use a vulnerable patient as personal pleasure.

 

[Gorsasu]

He harmed you by doing this, it's morally wrong in so many ways to use a vulnerable patient as personal pleasure.

This is 100% correct

 

[didn't-it-rain]

I would not want to cause him any harm and that is why I never told anyone. Everything is illegal today anyways IMO

While that's noble of you (I guess), this motherfucker should experience consequences. This is absolutely not okay for a therapist to do, even putting aside the matter of it being legal or not (though it is, of course, not). But it's ultimately your call.

 

[lukas19]

theRAPIST indeed

 

[Ultracheese]

I understand you don't want to harm him, but he absolutely harmed you and that's not ok. A therapist manipulating their client in that way is not acceptable on either a professional or personal level. Please don't blame yourself for still feeling attached to him in any capacity. My experience is different than yours, as I was sexually abused by my therapist when I was a kid. But regardless of what you decide to do in terms of reporting him, your feelings are totally valid and I'm so sorry for what you experienced.

 

[hellispink]

He took advantage of your mental state just to use you and he got away with it. For him it was just a hook up. He knows how the brain works and also knows how to execute well manipulation techniques. He makes you think somehow its your fault or that everything was not real or a misunderstanding of yours. That is how those psychopaths work.

 

[jamie_]

scary that people think a 10 minute thrill is worth doing something manipulative, illegal, and potentially life ruining not only to you but his partner he is cheating on. chances are you aren't his first or last patient that he has done this too. this world is terrifying.

 

[Brave_it_Shiru]

Well this is all very interesting. Really off topic y'all lol

 

[conflagration]

I am not surprised, most therapists are narcissists with questionable morals who want to be guru to their patients.

 

[NotWiseEnough]

It's not too late to report him.

 

[Brave_it_Shiru]

My journey with him already ended. I honestly felt that he helped distract me and I would love such a high again

 

[Illidan77]

My journey with him already ended. I honestly felt that he helped distract me and I would love such a high again

But it leave you with jealousy and anger.. idk if it'll affect your self-esteem.. i think it's called transference, it could be good or bad.. but if it only lead to feeling high instead solving issue, i honestly think it's bad imo.

 

[tryagain]

This is no diary but hey...since everyone around me talks about talking to someone about my mental health...I want to share this.

I, in no means, want to land him in any trouble as I was so infatuated with him.

Started when I was threatened with admission into a facility (by my mom?) if I did not "talk to someone".

This therapist met me at my worst (messy hair, unmatched clothes, dead eyes etc) yet we started to flirt a bit. He'd call me for hours every night to see how I was and my sessions became very exciting. A few days later, we were organising where to meet and all...a span of about 2weeks and I forgot about ctb.

I genuinely thought we were dating until I asked him point blank if he had a GF and he said yes. Immediately, I started to withdraw and missed two sessions. After this, he apologised for our relationship and completely ghosted me to a point where he left the hospital to work elsewhere.

I felt so confused. I felt so jealous and angry at him for withholding this information. A part of me thinks I would have continued with the relationship had he told me before I asked. And to date, a part of me still thinks of him with a lot of fondness.

Years later and I find myself back to the beginning (ready to ctb) and I wonder if he was a recovery method after all...

I have experienced something inappropriate also. Many years ago and he ended up being "struck off" the medical register as a psychiatrist. He is dead now but I still love him . Can't help it no matter how wrong it was. It did keep me going for a while. Sorry you had to experience this. Should not happen.

 

[Brave_it_Shiru]

I have experienced something inappropriate also. Many years ago and he ended up being "struck off" the medical register as a psychiatrist. He is dead now but I still love him . Can't help it no matter how wrong it was. It did keep me going for a while. Sorry you had to experience this. Should not happen.

Youuuu....I almost chocked on that "he's dead" shuuuuu
Sorry.

I understand you don't want to harm him, but he absolutely harmed you and that's not ok. A therapist manipulating their client in that way is not acceptable on either a professional or personal level. Please don't blame yourself for still feeling attached to him in any capacity. My experience is different than yours, as I was sexually abused by my therapist when I was a kid. But regardless of what you decide to do in terms of reporting him, your feelings are totally valid and I'm so sorry for what you experienced.

I can't give you enough virtual hugs
Obviously our experiences were very different but I kinda see it now from a new perspective.

Did you report it?

He took advantage of your mental state just to use you and he got away with it. For him it was just a hook up. He knows how the brain works and also knows how to execute well manipulation techniques. He makes you think somehow its your fault or that everything was not real or a misunderstanding of yours. That is how those psychopaths work.

I hope this wasn't what he was thinking that whole time.
It's scary to think all the levels the mind can hold in one moment.
That I can be sad and still allow others to have a happy experience in our interactions.
I honestly hope I did not misread that situation with him because he made me briefly happy.

 

[Mirrory Me]

He should have stayed in his role so that you would have received the best possible help, and not behaved selfishly.

You should report this so that he doesn't take advantage of others / act unprofessionally in the future.