I'm really sorry to hear, calicocat07~ :( That sounds really awful~ >_< I was always bad with talking in Discord servers too~ I'd recommend just dm'ing individuals if you can or are able to~ :) unfortunately, I have the same issue irl tho~ :( I listen to others and try to pretend to be something I'm not and yet I still fail to make friends in spite of it, meaning that I endure all that pain for nothing~ >_< I hope that you can find some personality that lets you be able to make friends~ :) unfortunately, I don't really know what that is! :(