Severe anhedonia

[KiraLittleOwl]

I can't enjoy anything anymore. Literally nothing, even food taste bland.
Walks, socialising, movies, music, pets, talking, weed, shopping
Everything is poisoned and pointless.

 

[Broken Chimera]

I feel your pain. I'm dealing with the same problem. Have you ever been on antidepressants?

 

[faust]

Hello, this issue is affecting me severely too.
I was very inactive on forum the last few weeks, was merely gaming, trying to run away from everything that happens.
But I left the game because even my favorite game does not give me any pleasure anymore.
Life is totally lifeless. Like everything that I see is behind the bulletproof glass or a screen and does not touch me.
I am too tired of seeing the real world unreal.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I feel your pain. I'm dealing with the same problem. Have you ever been on antidepressants?

I an am on Lexapro

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I an am on Lexapro

Did you feel like this before the Lexapro? I have anhedonia as well, but I could still taste food. When I was on Lexapro, it worsened to the point where I couldn't taste my food.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Did you feel like this before the Lexapro? I have anhedonia as well, but I could still taste food. When I was on Lexapro, it worsened to the point where I couldn't taste my food.

I think it was little better but I felt all the pain that is numbed now
I don't know what's worse

 

[Broken Chimera]

I never lost taste, but I got anhedonia somewhere between zoloft and latuda. I just stopped enjoying everything. The more I see the more I know antidepressants do more harm than good.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Yes, I tried them before they always numb me.
I feel half dead already.

 

[Broken Chimera]

I'm sorry. Is Lexapro helping you more than the others?

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I can't enjoy anything anymore. Literally nothing, even food taste bland.
Walks, socialising, movies, music, pets, talking, weed, shopping
Everything is poisoned and pointless.

I "feel the same way (poor choice of words) for the last 6 years my apathy and anhedonia has become worse by each passing year and now I don´t feel anything I can´t feel happiness, sadness, or even excitement and I can´t even feel the happy/sad feelings of nostalgia anymore.

I also agree with the food it tasted better 10 years ago, I have a theory as to why because food is like a drug for your tastebuds so at like 10 years old pizza, Mc Donalds and other junkfood and candy tasted so good because you haven´t tasted them so many times or that often now at age 26 I have tasted these foods so many times it´s barely brings me any pleasure like when abusing a drug eventually the magic goes away that is one of the tragedies of growing up and that applies to everything for me.

I feel and enjoy nothing I don´t even play video games anymore because they have gotten too boring can you believe that!? As a child and teenager video games were so much fun and now they are boring it´s so sad, especially because some of my best memories were playing video games like when I played Medal of Honor Allied Assault and especially Pokemon Silver for the GameBoy color that was my favorite video game of all time so many good memories of playing that game and Pokemon Ruby too with my friends on each our own Gameboys but now everything is boring, same with movies as a child they were so fun and unpredictable now every movie is so boring because they are so predictable, the good guy in the movies never die and if he does he is magically brought back to life either through magic or some twist.

The real me died a long time ago I have no personality and no hopes and dreams now the body just need to go too.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I'm sorry. Is Lexapro helping you more than the others?

It's ok
I find it more powerful than those I tried before but honestly I wouldn't call it helping. I still think I am better off dead but it's but as urgent as it was before ADs

I "feel the same way (poor choice of words) for the last 6 years my apathy and anhedonia has become worse by each passing year and now I don´t feel anything I can´t feel happiness, sadness, or even excitement and I can´t even feel the happy/sad feelings of nostalgia anymore.

I also agree with the food it tasted better 10 years ago, I have a theory as to why because food is like a drug for your tastebuds so at like 10 years old pizza, Mc Donalds and other junkfood and candy tasted so good because you haven´t tasted them so many times or that often now at age 26 I have tasted these foods so many times it´s barely brings me any pleasure like when abusing a drug eventually the magic goes away that is one of the tragedies of growing up and that applies to everything for me.

I feel and enjoy nothing I don´t even play video games anymore because they have gotten too boring can you believe that!? As a child and teenager video games were so much fun and now they are boring it´s so sad, especially because some of my best memories were playing video games like when I played Medal of Honor Allied Assault and especially Pokemon Silver for the GameBoy color that was my favorite video game of all time so many good memories of playing that game and Pokemon Ruby too with my friends on each our own Gameboys but now everything is boring, same with movies as a child they were so fun and unpredictable now every movie is so boring because they are so predictable, the good guy in the movies never die and if he does he is magically brought back to life either through magic or some twist.

The real me died a long time ago I have no personality and no hopes and dreams now the body just need to go too.

Yes I believe you, videogames stopped bringing joy long time ago for me, then it was books and tv series
I still enjoyed socialising, food and weed but now even this is not working
Everything is so grey and I am bored to death

 

[TheEndIsIrrefutable]

Yeah, I know exactly what you are going through. Lexapro is a SSRI, which is one of the drug types that ended up ruining me irreversibly. Severe apathy and anhedonia is a living hell, and I would not wish it upon anyone.

I don't really feel any form of emotions anymore. Neither good nor bad/sad. I'm not able to enjoy anything at all either. I feel no affection for my family anymore. I have no longer any real empathy or sympathy for anyone.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Yeah, I know exactly what you are going through. Lexapro is a SSRI, which is one of the drug types that ended up ruining me irreversibly. Severe apathy and anhedonia is a living hell, and I would not wish it upon anyone.

I don't really feel any form of emotions anymore. Neither good nor bad/sad. I'm not able to enjoy anything at all either. I feel no affection for my family anymore. I have no longer any real empathy or sympathy for anyone.

Sounds horrible

 

[TheEndIsIrrefutable]

Sounds horrible

It is. Whenever I talk with my doctor about it, she always gets horrified about how horrible it sounds.

I don't want to say more about what my condition is, in case Lexapro is helping you, and I don't want to scare you off it.

 

[Broken Chimera]

It's ok
I find it more powerful than those I tried before but honestly I wouldn't call it helping. I still think I am better off dead but it's but as urgent as it was before ADs

Same here. That's why I stopped. What ADs did to me made me want to die even more. I'm apprehensive to try anything else because of what happened.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I think it was little better but I felt all the pain that is numbed now
I don't know what's worse

Me either, mate. People have disagreed with me on this, but to me numbness is absolutely painful. I've been told it's a defense mechanism and can't be painful. But my everyday numbness and my dissociative numbness are two different things.

 

[ssaaahmo]

I can't enjoy anything anymore. Literally nothing, even food taste bland.
Walks, socialising, movies, music, pets, talking, weed, shopping
Everything is poisoned and pointless.

I've experienced this too. It hurts to feel like a zombie and feel so different from others who have nice feelings

 

[Shakespear's Brother]

Really a terrible state to be in, because it makes existence unbearable and painful. If there is no joy or interest in anything, then what is the point.

I feel like I wander around, day in and day out, looking to become interested in something, trying to engage, and I fail. And it inspires a level of tremendous existential anxiety that paralyzes and consumes me in such a complete way that I feel like it will prevent me from CTB.

 

[_battered_butterfly_]

I can't enjoy anything anymore. Literally nothing, even food taste bland.
Walks, socialising, movies, music, pets, talking, weed, shopping
Everything is poisoned and pointless.

Same. Music doesn't sound the same... Food don't taste the same. Movies not pleasant or I can't hold the attention and they cause me panic... Pointless. Empty. Hollow... Do you suffer disassociation ???

 

[RedHarlequin]

What do those of you with extreme anhedonia do all day? I can't read, cant watch movies, can't play video games, can't socialize with others.
I myself wait all they for the day to be over so I can go to sleep and often take sleeping pills during the day just so I wouldn't have to be awake. Anhedonia is awful and I think the main reason I want to ctb.

 

[deletednumber]

Same for me.I just breath and Sleep.I watch my days go by, my life ruined, unable to do anything. resigned

 

[FuneralCry]

I have this too. I just spend most of my time stuck in my own thoughts. I find that doing most tasks are hard work and that everything is pointless as everything we do is just passing time until we die. I just look forward to sleep too.