What do you guys know about seretonin syndrom? Aparently, or at least acording to google, if you mix a bunch of different antidepresant that act to eneble the serotenin producion, you might just end up producing a bit too much serotoning, and this could be fatal:
"Serotonin syndrome is a potentially life-threatening condition precipitated by the use of serotonergic drugs. It may be a consequence of therapeutic medication use, interactions between medications or recreational drugs, or intentional overdose. Symptoms can range from mild to fatal and classically include altered mental status, autonomic dysfunction, and neuromuscular excitation..."
I found out about this after I talked with my psychiatrist about my trembles and how they were nonstop and were getting pretty annoying. He told me it was just a side effect of my new medication, and that he will see what we could do about it next sesion. But this interaction pushed me to investigate about my current medication and it let me down a rabbot hole about seretonin sydrom, and I imidiatly realized two things:
1. Due to my past diferent treatments and being on and off medication fairly constanly I have a lot of the drugs that "you shouldn't mix"
2. I've had the seretonin syndrom before but I just didn't know. In collegue, whenever it was finals exam I would get completely stress out and completly lose control (BPD traits) so in order to stop this from happening I would save a complete box of my antidepresants and swallow them all down the days I was supposed to be working on my final projects. This would make me feel horrible physically, I'm talking tremors and shaky limbs, stomach ache, diarrea, (now I know this are seretonin syndrom symptoms) but nothing I couldn't really handle. And mentally, I actually felt great, my mind was clear, I was able to focus more easily and my emotions were pushed away into a far corner. After finals ended, I would treat myself to a whole weekend, or more, without any pills to clense and everything sorted itself out.
Now, I'm kinda playing mad doctor here and I'm my own guinea pig. I been mixing different types of medicines as well as the cuantities and the scheduals. So far I've been feeling some of the syndroms effects, such as nausea and the tremos, but there is really no way for me to know if it's working or not. I will soon introduce st john's wort to the mix wich is perfect because it is not only untraceble to my knowledge so if it does kill me and they take a toxicology they might just find a small amount of antydepressants and rule it a "natural death" instead of an od (If you read my last post you would know I don't want my love ones to know I want to CTB), but it is strong and when it mixes with the specific medication I'm taking is pretty much guarantee to fuck with your seretonin levels.
Is this a stupid idea? Yes. Is it going to take a lot of time, maybe even whole months? Yes. Is there a posibility that this might not even work? Yes. Will I be constaly feeling sick and in pain? Yes. Do I care? No. I'm used to being sick, and to the pain, I've been pushing foward despise it for 21 years; so having to continue on a couple more months will be worth it for that final release of death. Besides, I kinda like the idea of not knowing of when I will drop dead, I go to sleep every night wishing that I don't have to wake up tomorrow, it is almost nice knowing that one night my wish will come true.
But what do you guys think? Is the idea too stupid?
"Serotonin syndrome is a potentially life-threatening condition precipitated by the use of serotonergic drugs. It may be a consequence of therapeutic medication use, interactions between medications or recreational drugs, or intentional overdose. Symptoms can range from mild to fatal and classically include altered mental status, autonomic dysfunction, and neuromuscular excitation..."
I found out about this after I talked with my psychiatrist about my trembles and how they were nonstop and were getting pretty annoying. He told me it was just a side effect of my new medication, and that he will see what we could do about it next sesion. But this interaction pushed me to investigate about my current medication and it let me down a rabbot hole about seretonin sydrom, and I imidiatly realized two things:
1. Due to my past diferent treatments and being on and off medication fairly constanly I have a lot of the drugs that "you shouldn't mix"
2. I've had the seretonin syndrom before but I just didn't know. In collegue, whenever it was finals exam I would get completely stress out and completly lose control (BPD traits) so in order to stop this from happening I would save a complete box of my antidepresants and swallow them all down the days I was supposed to be working on my final projects. This would make me feel horrible physically, I'm talking tremors and shaky limbs, stomach ache, diarrea, (now I know this are seretonin syndrom symptoms) but nothing I couldn't really handle. And mentally, I actually felt great, my mind was clear, I was able to focus more easily and my emotions were pushed away into a far corner. After finals ended, I would treat myself to a whole weekend, or more, without any pills to clense and everything sorted itself out.
Now, I'm kinda playing mad doctor here and I'm my own guinea pig. I been mixing different types of medicines as well as the cuantities and the scheduals. So far I've been feeling some of the syndroms effects, such as nausea and the tremos, but there is really no way for me to know if it's working or not. I will soon introduce st john's wort to the mix wich is perfect because it is not only untraceble to my knowledge so if it does kill me and they take a toxicology they might just find a small amount of antydepressants and rule it a "natural death" instead of an od (If you read my last post you would know I don't want my love ones to know I want to CTB), but it is strong and when it mixes with the specific medication I'm taking is pretty much guarantee to fuck with your seretonin levels.
Is this a stupid idea? Yes. Is it going to take a lot of time, maybe even whole months? Yes. Is there a posibility that this might not even work? Yes. Will I be constaly feeling sick and in pain? Yes. Do I care? No. I'm used to being sick, and to the pain, I've been pushing foward despise it for 21 years; so having to continue on a couple more months will be worth it for that final release of death. Besides, I kinda like the idea of not knowing of when I will drop dead, I go to sleep every night wishing that I don't have to wake up tomorrow, it is almost nice knowing that one night my wish will come true.
But what do you guys think? Is the idea too stupid?
