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Pilum Muralis
“We'll never be as young as we are tonight.”
- Jul 2, 2019
- 187
Over the years, I've been saving the names, dates and locations of all the doctors I've seen, who have either diminished my levels of pain, or outright denied it, or my favorite...just do back exercises and take some Tylenol . I have 7 names, hopefully no more are added.
I plan on sending a letter to them, detailing what they told me and add basically a big "fuck you" note stating you were partly responsible for my death, making me feel worthless and shame, feeling like some drug addict because I asked for something to help me be able to just function, for saying "it's can't be that bad" when I describe my pain. I want them, at the very least, pull my records and realize their flippant attitude and crappy bedside manner. With any luck it will haunt them, and the next person who talks to them, they will actually listen with a sympathetic ear.
I would send the letters out just before I would cbt, so they couldn't "rescue" me. Hell, I may even send a letter to the DEA, for making people who suffer into criminals, just to find relief with narcotics or hallucinogens. Maybe even my insurance company, just because they're dicks about ANYTHING that requires authorization.
I plan on sending a letter to them, detailing what they told me and add basically a big "fuck you" note stating you were partly responsible for my death, making me feel worthless and shame, feeling like some drug addict because I asked for something to help me be able to just function, for saying "it's can't be that bad" when I describe my pain. I want them, at the very least, pull my records and realize their flippant attitude and crappy bedside manner. With any luck it will haunt them, and the next person who talks to them, they will actually listen with a sympathetic ear.
I would send the letters out just before I would cbt, so they couldn't "rescue" me. Hell, I may even send a letter to the DEA, for making people who suffer into criminals, just to find relief with narcotics or hallucinogens. Maybe even my insurance company, just because they're dicks about ANYTHING that requires authorization.