Venting Self worth

[Okokaykay]

The constant feeling that I'm not worth people's time, that I'm only getting in the way and I'm not supposed to be here destroys so much. I don't know how to stop it at all?

I have zero friends because of it- I can't bring myself to talk to people properly because of the itching feeling that something is wrong with me. I feel like an alien in comparison to others.

 

[ChangeWaiter]

Is it with all the people or are there anywhere friends or family members you feel comfortable spending time with?

 

[Okokaykay]

Is it with all the people or are there anywhere friends or family members you feel comfortable spending time with?

ive pulled away from a lot of people over time- i feel so guilty when i spend time with most family too.
me and my brother are quite close, but i dont see him often anymore.

 

[ChangeWaiter]

Did you ever talk to a specialist, maybe there IS something off, like a condition? If you knew, you could find ways to get a grip on it, at least you wouldn't keep wondering what it is.

 

[piddincir]

I am so sorry to hear this, I know how hard these struggles can be, not from myself but from my wife.

She was an amazing person, smart, beautiful and just fun to be with.

She always struggled from a young age with her sense of self worth and your struggles and the way you describe it just resonates with all the conversations I had with her over the years.

From a young age so filled that void with alcohol and drugs, using them as a way to numb that feeling and she definitely used them as a crutch to the point she felt she couldn't interact with people without them. It's a shame because she was this person without them but never say it within. She isolated herself from everyone at the end, she was terrible at keeping in contact with people but all the love and support and nice messages I've had about her over the last month has been touching - she didn't know how much she was loved (by anyone else apart from me) and I would urge you to not do the same, your might be surprised how many people care.

it's horrible that you feel that way too