Help Self preservation suppression

[vad]

I am curious about any methods of suppressing such a fundamental instinct. I am currently determined in my intention to ctb. But i can't trust myself to be this way until the very end. I am aware that often our instincts can prevent us from CTB so i think i need to counteract against this somehow. I assume the most available method would be substance ingestion. But i am not sure which one would be the most effective at achieving the desired lack of self preservation.

 

[InevitableDeath]

Depends on the method. Booze is the usual one., but none are guaranteed. SI's a bitch.