venua
ven *
- Jul 1, 2023
- 59
self-infliction. The pain I inflict feels good. Feels calm. I find peace in the red that my violence spills. I find comfort in the cut I inflict. but the harsh stings for days on end after. are only a reminder of the failure I feel I am becoming. the rubbing clothes and the burning showers. are only a reminder. it's an endless cycle. recovery only to relapse. like I climbed out of this hole. just to fall to the bottom when I was so close to getting out.my skin has that constant stain. even during the healing. it's like even when I'm clean. I can't wash away what I want.
