Self Harm

[suicidal.lady]

I really want to self harm
I self harm by cutting and picking - what way do you self harm?

 

[adios]

I used to cut a lot, but now that my parents took any access I had to blades, I just beat the crap out of myself and hit myself in the head. It's a way for me to release anger:(

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i usually cut myself with a double-edged razor, but lately i've been having urges to burn myself with a flat iron and stab myself.

please make sure that your wounds aren't getting infected and that whatever you use is clean.

 

[Squiddy]

I usually cut, but I've been 105 days without cutting which is great for me because I didn't think I'd make it that long :)

 

[J113632]

I used to cut myself on my thighs with a sterilized razor. I didn't want anybody to see it. I stopped after a while though as it only made me feel worse and after the distraction of the pain was over, I was right back where I started.

 

[Shades of Grey]

Primarily cutting. I have always been very secretive about it, and most people (outside of clinical settings) have no idea that I've been "there".

I went without for twelve years before relapsing in 2018 due to work-related stresses. I don't do it nearly as much as I used to anymore.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I cut my thighs, burn myself on my stomach and scratch my hands until the skin is raw. I've done it for years and the scarring is pretty horrible now. Make sure what you're using is clean and take care of the wounds after, you don't want to get an infection and run into complications. Take care

 

[JustLosingMyself]

Please don't start, it's addictive and scarring. I still have to explain scars 30 years on

 

[W3akCr3atur3]

Mostly cutting. Sometimes I starve myself or beat my head to the wall. Last time I did it on the door's corner. It was so hard I had all of my face covered in blood. Also I got scar that's not going to completely heal as far as I see.

 

[suicidal.lady]

I usually cut, but I've been 105 days without cutting which is great for me because I didn't think I'd make it that long :)

Ah that's amazing, you keep going xx

Please don't start, it's addictive and scarring. I still have to explain scars 30 years on

Ive actually been self harming since I was 16 and now I'm 22 so I know exactly what it's like.

 

[Squiddy]

Ah that's amazing, you keep going xx

Ive actually been self harming since I was 16 and now I'm 22 so I know exactly what it's like.

Thanks. I'll try my best :) I was cutting since I was 14 (am 21 now)

 

[Rue89]

I cut my thighs with an x-acto knife blade and pull my hair, not pull it out, just hard enough to make it hurt.

 

[SadJessu]

Usually cutting in some form or fashion, sometimes I hit myself with a hammer or another blunt object.

 

[Notme]

I use Stanley blades. Mainly chest and torso. It makes me feel so much better about things. I turn allot inwards anyway so it helps me have that realise.

I use Stanley blades. Mainly chest and torso. It makes me feel so much better about things. I turn allot inwards anyway so it helps me have that realise.

Also I was self harming when I was 13 till I was 22 then started again now I'm 35. Mad how old habits feel so right. I wish I'd have never stopped.

 

[Sinai Silence]

Scratching, cutting with a razor blade on my legs, sometimes heated. I used to burn myself with blunt ends too.

 

[It'sNotLookingGood]

Cutting. I rarely go too deep though, I don't usually feel the need to. Seeing a nice amount of blood is good and feels nice

 

[Emily_Numb]

Cutting with single use scalpels, scratching tops of hands and arms until I break the skin, binge/purging.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I cut and make deep scratches on myself. Sometimes I hit myself, but I really don't like doing that.... Also, I'm not sure if this counts, but I binge eat. Part of it's a habit, yes, but there are times where I purposefully binge to make my stomach hurt and to feel like crap.

Cutting. I rarely go too deep though, I don't usually feel the need to. Seeing a nice amount of blood is good and feels nice

Yes....watching and feeling the blood is really something else.

I cut my thighs, burn myself on my stomach and scratch my hands until the skin is raw. I've done it for years and the scarring is pretty horrible now. Make sure what you're using is clean and take care of the wounds after, you don't want to get an infection and run into complications. Take care ❤

Yes, please please always care for the wounds! Infection is no joke.

 

[Notme]

Does anyone else when you cut yourself that you have a second of pain but then pure peace in your head just for a second or two. I like how the blood looks and runs as well. I wonder what this means.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Does anyone else when you cut yourself that you have a second of pain but then pure peace in your head just for a second or two. I like how the blood looks and runs as well. I wonder what this means.

I'm not sure if it's peace or not, but everything seems to slow down for a bit and I feel numb. I guess it's peaceful compared to what drives me to cut lmao. Maybe you like the blood because it reminds you that you're alive, or it's like the pain is literally leaving you? Those seem like common reasons.

 

[Notme]

I'm not sure if it's peace or not, but everything seems to slow down for a bit and I feel numb. I guess it's peaceful compared to what drives me to cut lmao. Maybe you like the blood because it reminds you that you're alive, or it's like the pain is literally leaving you? Those seem like common reasons.

Amazing reply. It's answered that for me lol. Yeah you feel free numb for just a shirt time it's amazing.

 

[Sunset764]

I either cut or burn myself with salt and ice.

 

[Sinkinshyp]

I'm supposed to be 49 the end of october. I used to cut as a teenager. I made a tic tac toe board all up my arm. I put cigarettes out on myself. I've had to hide those scars for 30 years now long before it was common knowledge people self harm. Reading this post reminded me of how good it used to feel to get that release. I might try it before I CTB. if for anything old time sakes.

 

[Thinking]

I cut my thighs, though because of ballet I have to wear a leotard a lot, so I'm trying to cut on my stomach instead. It's just more pain for less blood so it's not as satisfying:/

 

[Shades of Grey]

I feel very little pain when I cut. It stings a bit at first, but not nearly as much as it would if the injuries had been accidental. Then, I'll typically enter a state of numb "relaxation". It's usually easy for me to fall asleep afterwards, regardless of what state I might have initially been in.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I feel very little pain when I cut. It stings a bit at first, but not nearly as much as it would if the injuries had been accidental. Then, I'll typically enter a state of numb "relaxation". It's usually easy for me to fall asleep afterwards, regardless of what state I might have initially been in.

I initially feel pain too, then go numb physically and emotionally. The numbness is very comfortable, for me at least. :)

 

[Shades of Grey]

I initially feel pain too, then go numb physically and emotionally. The numbness is very comfortable, for me at least. :)

Same.

I know a lot of people do it to bring themselves out of a dissociative state or otherwise "feel something", but for me, the effect is pretty much the opposite.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

Same here - picking and cutting, which provides something to pick. I've done it all my life. Right now, my nails are uncharacteristically bit right down to the core. My fingers hurt when I move them?! I use eating disorders as self-harm: either restricting, using laxatives and diet pills to mess with my heart, or purging to the point of almost passing out. It's a cheap coping mechanism that, after more than 30 years, has become an easy way to beat myself up.

 

[Mafe]

Ne corto. Se vuelve tan necesario para calmar el dolor. No lo hago tan profundo, pero ver la sangre me ayuda un poco.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Same.

I know a lot of people do it to bring themselves out of a dissociative state or otherwise "feel something", but for me, the effect is pretty much the opposite.

It's funny because when I'm dissociating I want to cut myself to bring myself out of it, even though it's kinda cozy. When I'm overwhelmed I cut or make deep scratches and end up dissociating. Idk what I want from myself lmao.