Self harm poll

[Jisatsu]

Have you self harmed?
Self harming isn't just cutting or burning, it's any form of physical damage to one's self in the intention to do harm to themselves.

 

[Doll Steak]

I don't know if it would really count but I always hit/punched myself when I was around 7-12, the cutting and strangling started at 15 - 16.

 

[Jisatsu]

I don't know if it would really count but I always hit/punched myself when I was around 7-12, the cutting and strangling started at 15 - 16.

Hitting and punching definitely count. I've been restrained in psych wards for doing it lol

 

[Eriktf]

i have tried:
cutting.
tried scratching my fist bloody.
punching myself.

i find comfort in SH but never got "addicted to it" think its overrated

new blades to cut my self arrived yesterday not sure when i do it again.

 

[Venateration]

I used to slap myself, punch myself and burn myself. About 2-3 years ago I started cutting
I forgot I drag sharp bottles on my skin too!

 

[Anonymousa]

Yes, I either cut or hit myself as hard as I can or use a riding whip. Never been hospitalized for it tho.

 

[princexhhn]

I've been cutting since I was about 11 or 12. Before that though, I did always take out frustrations on myself. I've been hospitalized for cutting too deep and needing stitches, as well as overdosing with the intent to harm because I knew it wouldn't kill me. I'm pretty sure I've developed an addiction for it but I don't really care anymore.

 

[sweetcreep]

been clean from cutting for a few months now but everyday is a fucking struggle.

 

[nuva]

been clean from cutting for a few months now but everyday is a fucking struggle.

you are probably putting in a lot of effort, you can be proud of yourself.

 

[wishingonstars]

By hospitalized do you mean the ER to get stitches/medical treatment or psych ward/inpatient hospitalization?

 

[deep-sleeper]

punching myself, pulling my skin off, scratching.

I wish I could actually cut myself, but I am afraid of getting hospitalized, also it's way harder to mask it

 

[MissAbyss]

Punching myself a couple of times out of rage.
It was me or the other person, so it was unintentional. I don't know it that counts as self harm.

 

[Silver The Hedgehog]

hospitalized because as a kid i decided to stop ingesting fluids for 3 days. Never counted that as self harm before but i definitely did it with the intention of harming my body.
The other times ive self harmed was just light stabbing and harsh bruising but thats it

 

[Jisatsu]

By hospitalized do you mean the ER to get stitches/medical treatment or psych ward/inpatient hospitalization?

Both caught as hospitalization.

 

[CumbriaCTB]

A quick list of the more common methods I've done:

• Cutting (primary form of SH).
• Headbanging, especially when younger.
• Hairpulling.
• Scratching, usually to reopen cutting wounds.

Also things I've done that aren't directly associated with SH but professionals say are SH:

• Binge-eating.
• Starvation (yes, I have an eating disorder).
• Various forms of emotional self-harm, essentially triggering myself on purpose.
• Social self-sabotage.
• Drinking large amounts of vodka (~250ml @ 40%) within 15~60 minutes. Usually precedes the social self-sabotage.
• Putting myself in vulnerable positions, especially while intoxicated, so that men sexually assault me - a therapist actually did tell me personally that this was a form of self-harm increasingly common in young women after I shared it with her - but thankfully it only happened once, despite numerous attempts, and involved no penetration.

I was Sectioned (legal detention for dangerously mentally ill people in the UK) as a teenager for cutting myself (and also being suicidal) and have had countless trips to A&E over the years for physical injuries as well.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I did this a million years ago before it had a name (that I knew of). Hitting, scratching, starving. But nothing that leaves a mark. As time went by I think it settled in to a baseline of general self-depravation and deliberate self-destruction, mainly socially and psychologically.

 

[kcon1243]

I self harm as a harm reductive measure. When I feel like I may impulsively try and CTB, I hurt myself so I dont deviate from my actual methodically planned CTB approach and fuck shit up.
As a kid, I would pick, pinch and punch things and myself. Got into cutting and burning and intentional but nonlethal overdoses. I'd not eat for days, consume a lot of substances during my younger years. Took at 15 year hiatus and now I'm back to burning.
Cigarette burns and salt and ice burns. Something about the pain can pause a spiral. I just dont want to make an attempt to CTB in the heat of the moment that doesn't actually accomplish what I want and puts me in a worse off place.

 

[hereandthere13]

binge-eating
self isolation
masturbation (it triggers me)
picking at my skin really hard
popping pills etc

but never typical SH like cutting

 

[Green Destiny]

It's been years since I last self harmed but I would hit myself in the head with my fists or if it was a really bad episode I would smack my head into a wall. Did it hard enough that I left a dent that had to be patched with new dry wall.

 

[30LoverForever]

Yes but I really regret it now
Trying self harm never ended my life painlessly or just caused me more suffering

 

[woofwag]

Yeah, mostly cutting, but I've also burnt, scratched, punched, hit myself with a hammer, hit my head, sleep deprived myself, and tried to get myself into dangerous situations (nothing ever really came of that tho, I was too scared to ever fully let go enough that someone would be able to hurt me). I went to urgent care for a cut when I was 18 and they didn't really do anything. Only other time I did anything about it was when I had to have my neck glued shut when it wouldn't stop bleeding (was not a suicide attempt).

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

Several times. Cut my right thigh with a razor edge. It was not bad but did not get into it because abusing opioids was so much better. Well It's said that substance abuse is a form of self-harm.

 

[dead dav]

I have punched slapped and scratched myself with a knife also choked myself hard Al so suffocated myself it's a kind of self punishment but it's also addictive