Self harm or Self Injury

[JJ-NOHOPE]

Anyone else self harm ( NSSI non-suicidal self injury)?

Just curious because I don't personally know anyone else who does it.

I cut. My left arm mostly. Sometimes pretty deep. People think I need stitches, but it's fine.

I think there are several main reasons for it:
To have a physical manifestation of the mental agony I am in.
I like the physical pain.
I love, love, love the blood. ( I even write messages to myself in blood on my sheets. Then I sleep in them. So macabre!)
It sometimes stops me from uncontrollable crying.
I think I am punishing myself for something. Not sure what. Maybe being sexually assaulted when very young.
On bad days, it probably keeps me from ctb ( which isn't necessarily a good thing.)

All my friends/relatives think it is just crazy and don't even try to be empathetic.

Just wanted to know I was not alone.

 

[Koal]

I cut myself on my forearm a whole lot. I think I started as a way of desentizing myself so that I could eventually kill myself. Despite now knowing how terrible of an idea exsanguination is, I still cut myself as a coping mechanism.

 

[Sanguinius]

Yes. I do.
Because I want the pain to stop.

 

[21Neberg]

I cut myself too. I enjoy seeing the scars, mostly. I just got a new blade too. Going to be a good night, tonight.

 

[Rori]

Anyone else self harm ( NSSI non-suicidal self injury)?

Just curious because I don't personally know anyone else who does it.

I cut. My left arm mostly. Sometimes pretty deep. People think I need stitches, but it's fine.

I think there are several main reasons for it:
To have a physical manifestation of the mental agony I am in.
I like the physical pain.
I love, love, love the blood. ( I even write messages to myself in blood on my sheets. Then I sleep in them. So macabre!)
It sometimes stops me from uncontrollable crying.
I think I am punishing myself for something. Not sure what. Maybe being sexually assaulted when very young.
On bad days, it probably keeps me from ctb ( which isn't necessarily a good thing.)

All my friends/relatives think it is just crazy and don't even try to be empathetic.

Just wanted to know I was not alone.

I do from time to time, I either cut mostly in places that I can hide, because family members will freak out at me.

 

[NotWorthLiving]

I cut on my torso cause I wear shorts and a tshirt all year round and I don't want people knowing. I really really really wanna cut on my legs and arms but I cant. I also have other self harm methods though.

 

[Suicide47]

Yes I do, but I don't seek empathy so I do it in places people can't see. Mostly where my underwear/ bikini line. Also used to do it on my upper thighs and I have done a little on my wrists but I don't have scars there. It definitely helps the pain, I used to draw in my blood too from the razor onto paper, I loved seeing the color and it made me feel less worthless. I haven't cut in about 3 months but I'm considering starting again. I use bruising now, less permanent outcome; but I do prefer cutting

 

[Suicide47]

I cut on my torso cause I wear shorts and a tshirt all year round and I don't want people knowing. I really really really wanna cut on my legs and arms but I cant. I also have other self harm methods though.

Like what? I'm trying to try new ways but the only other ones I know are bruising (which I'm currently using) and burning which I have a hard time with

 

[sif]

Yeah.. I get more of an urge to do it as my fear and stillness increases. I made a thread yesterday https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/self-harm.9898/

Luckily stitches aren't so important unless you're exposing fat and muscle I think, otherwise you'll just be left with a large scar

 

[Lil_Intro_Vert]

I cut on my thighs frequently, i love the way it looks and it feels very nice. Its something i look forward to when I'm stressed or anxious, although not when I'm worried about someone seeing it, like today during soccer practice when i had to wear shorts. I wish i could cut deeper but i only have a knife thats part of a multitool, i dont really have access to razors :(((

 

[NotWorthLiving]

I'm just curious, what do people use to selfharm with?

I've heard of people burning with cigarettes and cutting with razor blades and blades from pencil sharpeners but I'm just curious as to what else people use.

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

I'm just curious, what do people use to selfharm with?

I've heard of people burning with cigarettes and cutting with razor blades and blades from pencil sharpeners but I'm just curious as to what else people use.

Sometimes I'd let hot water pour over my hands. Not boiling hot maybe, but hot enough for it to be painful.

 

[Lil_Intro_Vert]

I'm just curious, what do people use to selfharm with?

I've heard of people burning with cigarettes and cutting with razor blades and blades from pencil sharpeners but I'm just curious as to what else people use.

Knife because i cant get access to a razor, some people use scissors if they have nothing else and if my knives were taken I'd probably turn there

 

[sif]

I'm just curious, what do people use to selfharm with?

I've heard of people burning with cigarettes and cutting with razor blades and blades from pencil sharpeners but I'm just curious as to what else people use.

I always found that broken glass and ceramics and stuff was always actually too dull, razors from new pencil sharpeners but they don't last long at all, razors from disposable razors but they're tiny and finicky and I have to lay it on some tape or something to even hold it.. and it's so thin that yes it's sharp but it's almost like giving yourself a paper cut, the feeling is a lot different to a pencil sharpener.

edit I mostly like to do it for the blood and to know that I'm damaging myself, more than the pain itself, I do it more the less I can feel it. Short quick cuts with one of these razors is pretty dangerous because it the difference of pressure for largely different depths of cuts is not very much, I haven't cut too deep doing that before but can see how people could easily.

 

[NotWorthLiving]

Like what? I'm trying to try new ways but the only other ones I know are bruising (which I'm currently using) and burning which I have a hard time with

If you google ways to selfharm or something like that, quite a few sites have a list even if they're help sites. Some include what you pointed out, so cutting burning and bruising, as well as carving, hair pulling, rubbing objects into the skin, interfering with healing, scratching/pinching, breaking bones, ODing on substances as self harm not as a suicide attempt, chemical burns,depriving yourself of essential things such as food and water, sometimes medication, shelter etc. They're just some of them. Have a quick search if you want to find more.