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jujujabebe
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- Aug 8, 2022
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As much as I don't want to be alive, I've already decided that's off the table for me. My parents already have two dead children, and after my brother died 7 years ago when I was just 14, my mother in particular has been a mess. I don't want to give them a third dead kid.
So, I need recommendations on self harm Methods. Cutting feels a little juvenile, and it's too obvious. I've only ever cut my stomach, but my boyfriend knows to check there when I'm in a bad headspace and I think he's going to leave me if I keep cutting myself because my mental illness is too much to deal with.
I've tried flicking my skin with elastic bands but it takes too long to get anywhere. Burning myself has the same problem as trying to cut myself and quite frankly I'm too much of a pussy to burn myself anyway.
I would be interested in a method involving almost overdosing or something akin to that, if that makes sense. At one point when I was prescribed guanfacine, I took 2x the recommended dose and I fainted four times just trying to walk to the bathroom. After a few days I was fine. I just want to feel like I'm dying but not face any negative consequences like brain damage. Perhaps that's just wishful thinking or completely unrealistic. Maybe I'm just too much of a pussy to kill myself.
Anyways, please give me your recommendations if you have any, it's greatly appreciated!
So, I need recommendations on self harm Methods. Cutting feels a little juvenile, and it's too obvious. I've only ever cut my stomach, but my boyfriend knows to check there when I'm in a bad headspace and I think he's going to leave me if I keep cutting myself because my mental illness is too much to deal with.
I've tried flicking my skin with elastic bands but it takes too long to get anywhere. Burning myself has the same problem as trying to cut myself and quite frankly I'm too much of a pussy to burn myself anyway.
I would be interested in a method involving almost overdosing or something akin to that, if that makes sense. At one point when I was prescribed guanfacine, I took 2x the recommended dose and I fainted four times just trying to walk to the bathroom. After a few days I was fine. I just want to feel like I'm dying but not face any negative consequences like brain damage. Perhaps that's just wishful thinking or completely unrealistic. Maybe I'm just too much of a pussy to kill myself.
Anyways, please give me your recommendations if you have any, it's greatly appreciated!
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