Venting Seeing the world move on

[losttagain]

Why does it make me so angry and miserable to see everyone happy or just going on with their lives doing things? Why does it annoy me so much to wake up everyday and see that the world doesn't stop and everything keeps moving while I'm stuck paralysed suffering and can't do anything to reach out? Why can't I even buy the stuff i need to kill myself? Everything scares me. I feel like a child who cant accept that things aren't like they want them to be and does nothing about it but go to the corner and scream and cry.

 

[RoyalBengalAutistic]

These are signs of severe depression. At least I feel this way because of it. It makes me feel bad that I am the only one staying behind. All the people I know have progressed so much in life, I can never compensate anymore. I tried not to think this way. But I can't help. It always makes me sad and miserable.