Schizophrenia?

[Gal1ctic]

Recently was just about to end my life via noose, like 2 seconds away, and in those 2 seconds I both got a casting offer for a role I wanted to play in a music video, and my mom called and talked to me on the phone. It was so coincidental that my body had an immense dread hit making me think that the universe was trying to stop me from ending my life in some sort of weird hostage situation. It also felt like my mom somehow knew I was gonna end it? Like she called in a super distressed voice even though it was just checking in to see how life was going. It was terrifying.

I don't want a pity diagnosis, if you don't know anything about schizophrenia I would prefer if you didn't respond

 

[Nood1eN0se]

I have schizoeffective disorder, I often hear voices of my family about an attempt, or something im planning. It freaks me out alot. Have you had hallucinations in the past?

 

[Gal1ctic]

No this was my first. My mom really called me! I had just like 2 or 3 voices telling me that I needed to kill myself now before anyone could stop me. Like I was being watched and my mom was part of it or something. I often hear voices but don't hallucinate, probably just thoughts I'm manifesting as voices. That's why I don't think it's real schizophrenia, probably something else