Story scared to ctb

[samp1475]

I'm not sure this is the right place for this but I need to get this off of my chest

My husband and I got into a big fight on Sunday night, and he told me we're over. Things are really complicated. We're young, have a house and pets, and I moved all the way from SC to TX for him so moving back is going to be hell.

I'm so sad. I just keep crying all of the time. He seems fine. While we were lying in bed he asked me to have sex with him. He said to not get my hopes up of this meaning we will stay together. I cried the whole time but would do anything to get just a brief moment of intimacy with him.

I think I'm going to ctb on Friday while he's at work. I'm going with partial hanging because it's the most accessible to me. SN is a close second but I have no access to antiemetics and have an irrational fear of vomiting.

I'm scared nonetheless. I'm not worried about being found (he works 7-3 and I plan to start about an hour after he leaves) and I plan on locking our second lock (we have an electronic lock and he never carries a key so it will be difficult to get in) but I'm still terrified. This is my only option at this point, but I'm worried I won't do it properly and will end up paralyzed. That's my biggest fear. I can't imagine living like that. I wish this was my only issue, but I can't seem to catch a break lately. I'm at a loss.

 

[randomz]

I am sorry for what happened. I don't think you should rush into such a hard decision over your current problem with your husband. I am sure with a little time you will resolve whatever issue you have, couples have fights all the time and sometimes it takes time for the aftermath to clear up.
Also, I think having sex does mean that the chances for you to stay together are pretty high.
I hope everything works out for you :)

 

[faust]

Hello,
I think the best thing for now would be to hold on.
Your husband did not tell you to leave the house, I assume you did not have a serious talk with him of what you are going to do.
He did not apply for divorce (or did he?)
Depending on what he loves, you can make him a surprise, or try to apologize (even if he is wrong).
Try to avoid fights and argues, this is never a good idea.
I wish everything is alright soon

 

[BPDbitch]

Please don't rush into anything sweetheart I know it's tough right now, but suicide isn't a decision to be rushed. I don't know you or your relationship with your partner, but if this is one random fight then I think you two will work it out sooner rather than later, especially if he still wants to have sex because he wouldn't if he didn't want to be close to you. We're always here for a chat if you need!

 

[aramir]

what's your financial situation ? are you able to support yourself in case you do break up ?. I'm so sorry you have to go through this , it seems to me incredibly manipulative that he would ask for sex and then still tell you to not get your hopes up about staying together. I don't want to dismiss your pain , but people break up all the time and while it may feel bad at the time it's not the end of the world, maybe if you tell us more about your situation we can be more helpful.

 

[samp1475]

I am sorry for what happened. I don't think you should rush into such a hard decision over your current problem with your husband. I am sure with a little time you will resolve whatever issue you have, couples have fights all the time and sometimes it takes time for the aftermath to clear up.
Also, I think having sex does mean that the chances for you to stay together are pretty high.
I hope everything works out for you :)

Thank you that means a lot :)

Please don't rush into anything sweetheart I know it's tough right now, but suicide isn't a decision to be rushed. I don't know you or your relationship with your partner, but if this is one random fight then I think you two will work it out sooner rather than later, especially if he still wants to have sex because he wouldn't if he didn't want to be close to you. We're always here for a chat if you need!

Thank you so much