sundown12
drama queen
- Oct 5, 2022
- 148
guys, i'm so tired of this. i have everything i need, but every time i set a date, something happens that disrupts my plans, or I ruin things on purpose to postpone my ctb.
my sleep schedule is back to normal, which means if I want to ctb with SN, i have to starve for the entire day, which gives me plenty of opportunity to ruin my fast just because I'm scared to die.
as I mentioned, I have everything I need except for the benzos. I don't know if it's my anxiety or what, I just wish I killed myself back when my sleep schedule was fucked up and I could do it right after I woke up and took ibuprofen/AE.
i have two options in my life right now, either ctb or find a job. and i don't want to work more than anything in the world, which leaves me with the first option. it's complicated, and I wish I could just end my suffering ASAP. any advice on how to set a date and go through with the plan?
my sleep schedule is back to normal, which means if I want to ctb with SN, i have to starve for the entire day, which gives me plenty of opportunity to ruin my fast just because I'm scared to die.
as I mentioned, I have everything I need except for the benzos. I don't know if it's my anxiety or what, I just wish I killed myself back when my sleep schedule was fucked up and I could do it right after I woke up and took ibuprofen/AE.
i have two options in my life right now, either ctb or find a job. and i don't want to work more than anything in the world, which leaves me with the first option. it's complicated, and I wish I could just end my suffering ASAP. any advice on how to set a date and go through with the plan?
