morgueprincess
ghost
- Dec 26, 2023
- 24
I'm scared of what will happen after i die. I tried to be good and sweet, and i have not committed any major offenses. i'm not religious either, but i'm haunted by the idea that i may go to a version of my own personal hell after i die because i ctb'ed instead of pushing through the rest of my life. i want to make it to the heaven i've created in my head, although i'm also fine with eternal nothingness; it's like sleeping and never waking up and the idea brings me comfort. the only thing holding me back is of the uncertainty that comes with death, and the fear that what comes after will be even worse than living. i feel like i've run out of options as of late, and i've lost touch with everything. the only thing i have left is to ctb, but i am just so scared of what comes after.