Dissapointed.
Relapsed. Again. Jiminy-Jeesus why are withdrawals so hardcore... fuck.fuck.fuck.
I'm so alone, no-one knows, no-one fucking cares...
Not sure why I'm sharing my new stupidity....(another lockdown /desperate measures...) ::
Now I'm jekyll and hyde-ing ::
cocktail mixing shooting animal meds with my H to test its effect on my heart /breathing.
No sn yet, no choice. I'm done. I have no fucking fear of what will come...
I have to go, soonest. The day my sn arrives
I will be gone within the hour.
The trees used to be beautiful, now they're just places to possibly hang from...