venua
ven *
- Jul 1, 2023
- 59
It's like nothing ever changes. I feel utterly nothing. No matter who I try and fill this gaping void with.. It all fails. Everything feels the fucking same. I'm tired. SO FUCKING TIRED. But I can't kill myself, not yet. Not now. I want to. I want to die, I desire it so badly. I pray and pray and nothing comes of it. I pray for forgivness, for hope & for well wishes towards my family when the time comes.. I devote time and effort into the God I believe in.. And yet nothing comes of it. I just want to fucking die already. I'm so tired.