Sanctioned Suicide has done more to prevent me from killing myself

[FireFox]

I joined Sanctioned Suicide at 22 years old and now I am 28. I have struggled with suicidal thoughts since the age of 21. I always felt like life just wasn't for me in so many ways and the thought of having another 20 years absolutely scared me.

Learning in detail what will happen if a particular method fails is why I have not attempted suicide this whole time. The information about methods on Sanctioned Suicide has helped me realise how harmful suicide is on the body and the harm might not even reversed.

I would have never ended up on Sanctioned Suicide if the people around me listened me to when I reached out. I did reach out so many times nobody in my life took me seriously. I was told the same patronising phrases over and over again by those around me
● " Everything happens for a reason"
●"People have it harder than you"
● " You have your whole life ahead of you"
● " people are disabled" insert lecture about how I am being "ungrateful"

So I gave up. I tried getting help under the NHS but always unsuccessful and getting a private therapist is too expensive.

 

[unluckysadness]

I agree 100% ! This site helps more live than it kills, but mainstream medias won't tell this !...

 

[Shadows From Hell]

And the other stupid phrases...

A permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Stop being selfish and thinking only of yourself.

Think about the pain you will cause those you leave behind.

And on and on and on .... Yaaawwwwn.

 

[heldbyone]

I joined Sanctioned Suicide at 22 years old and now I am 28. I have struggled with suicidal thoughts since the age of 21. I always felt like life just wasn't for me in so many ways and the thought of having another 20 years absolutely scared me.

Learning in detail what will happen if a particular method fails is why I have not attempted suicide this whole time. The information about methods on Sanctioned Suicide has helped me realise how harmful suicide is on the body and the harm might not even reversed.

I would have never ended up on Sanctioned Suicide if the people around me listened me to when I reached out. I did reach out so many times nobody in my life took me seriously. I was told the same patronising phrases over and over again by those around me
● " Everything happens for a reason"
●"People have it harder than you"
● " You have your whole life ahead of you"
● " people are disabled" insert lecture about how I am being "ungrateful"

So I gave up. I tried getting help under the NHS but always unsuccessful and getting a private therapist is too expensive.

i joined in 22 too and I'm 28 now and I have same thoughts , ss did really help a lot actually

 

[RadiantNumber]

I hope you'll be well, this forum helped many people but mainstream media will paint is the worst thing ever

 

[auniqueusername!]

I joined very recently but have been lurking for a long time and I agree! Other people can't really sympathize and think we are just insane for even considering suicide.

 

[TAW122]

I agree with you, SaSu has been amazing for me in the last three quarters of the last decade of my miserably sentience. It is like a second home, a real community that listens, doesn't judge, and also offers a sense of belonging that I never really found elsewhere. While there may still be things some people may not fully grasp or understand, being able to talk about CTB freely, gain knowledge of methods (which ones are effective and what to avoid, what not, etc.), and just the overall community really brings me the calm that I couldn't find in other places. Without SaSu, I'd likely may have had less method knowledge, took unnecessary risks, or even did something that made my life even worse than it is. While one day I may eventually CTB (barring anything that kills me before then), at least I know that I had some modicum of peace before my inevitable CTB.

 

[Michelstaedter]

SaSu has made me feel understood, although I can't answer every thread, I can relate to most of them. Deep down, I'd like to spend time with people like here and respect their decision to leave this world, although I hope it's peaceful and painless... Although I'd also like to support them and help them feel better, not judge them or tell them like other places that "death is not the solution," "life is beautiful," and things like that, which in the end don't help and make you feel more miserable, as if it were our fault for having these feelings that are so difficult to bear.

 

[Cauliflour]

This website keeps me sane. It's my medicine. It's where I go to chuck my thoughts that I can't say otherwise for fear of being sent to therapy. If I never found out about this place then I would've cracked by now and be sitting in a mental hospital. This is helping me push back that inevitable date so I have more time to figure out what the hell I'm doing with my life. Although I feel like it's a double edged sword because this is another secret to hide and I'm paranoid as fuck so it's certainly not helping on my constant grind to keep myself looking presentable. I'm so scared of someone I know in real life finding out I'm on this site and them try to send me to a mental hospital. God fucking help me.

 

[webb&flow]

This website keeps me sane. It's my medicine. It's where I go to chuck my thoughts that I can't say otherwise for fear of being sent to therapy. If I never found out about this place then I would've cracked by now and be sitting in a mental hospital. This is helping me push back that inevitable date so I have more time to figure out what the hell I'm doing with my life. Although I feel like it's a double edged sword because this is another secret to hide and I'm paranoid as fuck so it's certainly not helping on my constant grind to keep myself looking presentable. I'm so scared of someone I know in real life finding out I'm on this site and them try to send me to a mental hospital. God fucking help me.

I wish you the best of luck in figuring things out I just want to say also it's very unlikely anyone IRL will even know what this site is, let alone you being on it, so it's very unlikely they would ever know. I truly hope that you do figure out everything you feel confused about, and I hope you feel the finest feelings of peace, hope, and healing. I truly hope you do find understanding in solace in your time around here, and that your life is made easier through it. Best of wishes.

Sincerely,
—Hunter