Sad to leave without my parents by my side.

[Heart Shards]

I'm probably going to die in a month or so and I feel sad. I know it sounds weird but I want my parents there when I die. I wan't my mother to be there when I'm fading away from the mortal plane, talking to me and stroking my hair. It would be great to not have to die alone. I would love to tell them in hopes that they could be there to celebrate my exit from life with me. They won't though, they'll call the police and I'll get locked up. So that's all, it saddens me that people who celebrated the beginning of my life won't be celebrating my end with me. I know this may be weird, but they're my thoughts. I think I might get an air matress and lay out underneath the stars as I drink SN, Amy winehouse playing softly in the background. There are worse ways to go alone I suppose. Thanks for listening, Willow.

 

[JustAboutDone]

Hi I don't know about how close you are with your family, do they know how you feel at all and what you are going through? x

 

[Redt2go]

I'm probably going to die in a month or so and I feel sad. I know it sounds weird but I want my parents there when I die. I wan't my mother to be there when I'm fading away from the mortal plane, talking to me and stroking my hair. It would be great to not have to die alone. I would love to tell them in hopes that they could be there to celebrate my exit from life with me. They won't though, they'll call the police and I'll get locked up. So that's all, it saddens me that people who celebrated the beginning of my life won't be celebrating my end with me. I know this may be weird, but they're my thoughts. I think I might get an air matress and lay out underneath the stars as I drink SN, Amy winehouse playing softly in the background. There are worse ways to go alone I suppose. Thanks for listening, Willow.

What's your favorite Amy song ?

 

[Sinbad]

Mine is Back to Black.

 

[Macc Lad]

please be sure willow.......be sure this is what u want.......your parents will be heartbroken. if you do , i wish you well.....i wish you peace x

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

Just keep in mind that most of us have parents we will leave behind once we CTB. Wether they will pain over our death long term or not is really out of our control. All you can do is make peace with your decision.

 

[DontFearTheReaper]

I don't think it is weird at all.

 

[Heart Shards]

Hi I don't know about how close you are with your family, do they know how you feel at all and what you are going through? x

They know I struggle with depression, but I haven't been hospitalized for like a year. I just hate to say goodbye through a note. I'd rather have them with me when I go. If I say anything they will stop me. America needs to legalize euthenasia so my parents could be there with me when I go.

 

[Heart Shards]

What's your favorite Amy song ?

My favorite is Like smoke Ft. nas

 

[JustAboutDone]

They know I struggle with depression, but I haven't been hospitalized for like a year. I just hate to say goodbye through a note. I'd rather have them with me when I go. If I say anything they will stop me. America needs to legalize euthenasia so my parents could be there with me when I go.

:-( that's so sad, I'm so sorry because you want them with you and don't want to be without them xx do you live with them?

 

[Redt2go]

My favorite is Like smoke Ft. nas

I've never heard it but I love Amy so I'll give it a listen

 

[Heart Shards]

Mine is Back to Black.

Probably one of her defining songs. Explains how I feel sometimes.

 

[Sinbad]

My favorite is Like smoke Ft. nas

Nice one.

I know it sounds weird but I want my parents there when I die

I have a similar wish but i know its unrealistic like my own future..

 

[Heart Shards]

please be sure willow.......be sure this is what u want.......your parents will be heartbroken. if you do , i wish you well.....i wish you peace x

Thanks Macc! everyone one here is such good people. It's not fair that good people have to suffer.

 

[Heart Shards]

:-( that's so sad, I'm so sorry because you want them with you and don't want to be without them xx do you live with them?

Yes, I live with them. All i can do is spend as much time with them as I can until it is my time to go.

 

[JustAboutDone]

Yes, I live with them. All i can do is spend as much time with them as I can until it is my time to go.

I'm so sorry sweetie and I hope you can get as much love and pleasure out of this time together as you can and enjoy one another's company

 

[TheGoodGuy]

It´s not weird at all that is how I wish I could go as well, I love my parents so insanely much they gave me the best childhood ever and have always been amazing parents with unlimited love for me I just wish I could end my existence peacefully like euthanasia patient can laying in a bed surrounded by family who understands them and slowly drifting off to sleep while my parents and siblings will be the last I see that would be wonderful. But we live in an unjust world and we are forced to die undignified all alone and sometimes in violent ways it´s so sad.

And I love the setting you are going to do I have such love for the night sky with the cool air, quiet world and the beautiful nostalgic peaceful star clear sky.

 

[Heart Shards]

I'm am grateful for you all, I really am. For the first time in a long time, I don't feel crazy or alone. I don't feel judged or misunderstood. If there is a God, I hope he blesses all of you immensely. I love you all and don't even know you. I think tortured souls are the most tender and loving souls, It's irony really. We are so hard on our selves and gentle towards everyone else.

 

[Heart Shards]

My brain is just really fucked up! I'm going to be burden if I stay alive. I can't even take care of self or get my own place. I'm too scared to function.

 

[Tomey]

Willow, You are so delicated soul and kind.
I feel bad that a girl like you need to leave this world :-(

I wish i could die with my mom holding me but it will never going to happen.

I don't want to die alone also.
I wish i could press a button and disappear from this world.

Probably i will die alone listening to radiohead in my bad...

 

[21Neberg]

I'm am grateful for you all, I really am. For the first time in a long time, I don't feel crazy or alone. I don't feel judged or misunderstood. If there is a God, I hope he blesses all of you immensely. I love you all and don't even know you. I think tortured souls are the most tender and loving souls, It's irony really. We are so hard on our selves and gentle towards everyone else.

Beautiful words, and they're very true too. You can't spend your last moments with your parents but maybe you can tell them how much you love them before you go? Just because they're not there in your last moments you can spend time with them beforehand.

 

[Heart Shards]

Willow, You are so delicated soul and kind.
I feel bad that a girl like you need to leave this world :-(

I wish i could die with my mom holding me but it will never going to happen.

I don't want to die alone also.
I wish i could press a button and disappear from this world.

Probably i will die alone listening to radiohead in my bad...

I'm sorry, you don't deserve that. But i understand at the same time. I hope you find peace one day Tomey, however you achieve it.

 

[ReadyasEver]

I'm am grateful for you all, I really am. For the first time in a long time, I don't feel crazy or alone. I don't feel judged or misunderstood. If there is a God, I hope he blesses all of you immensely. I love you all and don't even know you. I think tortured souls are the most tender and loving souls, It's irony really. We are so hard on our selves and gentle towards everyone else.

This, so very well said.

 

[Macc Lad]

My brain is just really fucked up! I'm going to be burden if I stay alive. I can't even take care of self or get my own place. I'm too scared to function.

 

[Feline]

Fuck Me Pumps, Take The Box, Help Yourself, In My Bed, Stronger Than Me, Tears Dry On Their Own, Wake Up Alone, You Know I'm No Good. (Sorry! Huge Amy fan!) xxxx

What's your favorite Amy song ?

 

[Heart Shards]

Fuck Me Pumps, Take The Box, Help Yourself, In My Bed, Stronger Than Me, Tears Dry On Their Own, Wake Up Alone, You Know I'm No Good. (Sorry! Huge Amy fan!) xxxx

seriously she was a genius! Why couldn't we lose Justin Bieber or One Direction instead? they are shitty anyways!

 

[Redt2go]

Fuck Me Pumps, Take The Box, Help Yourself, In My Bed, Stronger Than Me, Tears Dry On Their Own, Wake Up Alone, You Know I'm No Good. (Sorry! Huge Amy fan!) xxxx

Same! She's my Prof pic lol

 

[Feline]

Fuck Me Pumps, Take The Box, Help Yourself, In My Bed, Stronger Than Me, Tears Dry On Their Own,

What's your favorite Amy song ?

 

[lululoo]

I don't think how you feel is strange at all. My mom has been a huge disappointment to me in life (didn't protect me from abusive father, for one)... yet even I kinda would want her there. It just seems so sad to have to do it alone.