All I am seeking is acceptance for what I am and what i'm feeling. And to be too much to handle , for the suicide community, makes me feel pretty shite. I do not look for anything from anyone, I learnt that a long time ago. Acceptance, perhaps validation. I am truly saddened. But this simply reinforces what I've known all along, trust no one. I thought I could be honest here, but obviously not, I'm done.
When you first came to this forum,it was during taking an overdose of paracetamol to die.
Many members of the community gave you solid advice on this.
As we got to know you,we started to understand that you feel the drive toward self-harm.
You've also explained that you need witnesses.
You don't want to be talked out of it.
So,I found myself at a loss as to what I can conceivably say.
That isn't a rejection by the community.
@autumnal has summarised the situation pretty well above.
And
@GoodPersonEffed has made some good points worth considering,too.
I know that you are lonely. So,why not start a topic that is more relatable to most people?
I'm not saying you need to conceal your self-harm to be accepted.
What I mean is,launch a thread to get a variety of replies from a cross section of people and more responses. Then,you'll have people to communicate with.