Running your mouth

[OnMyLast Legs]

Anyone want to CTB because of things you said? I've been running my dumb mouth my whole life. I have said so many embarrassing things. Broken promises, pseudointellectualism, delusions, unwarranted insults, and bizarre head-scratchers that make no sense. "It is not what goes into a man's mouth but what comes out that defiles him." Cringe memories hit me like bullets all the time. How am I supposed to live a natural lifespan this way?

 

[OOUUneverover]

Yes all the time. Once I got off my meds I learned how to shut up. Now I almost never talk because I know it won't do any good.

 

[anhedonic_moron]

literally exact same thing for me

 

[Unlucky777]

I can relate to all this. Take me away please

 

[cakedog]

happens to me too
I get cringe attacks from time to time and have strong regrets about the things i've said

 

[Unlucky777]

My SI is intense when these stupid thoughts arise. Anyone else like this also?

 

[cakedog]

My SI is intense when these stupid thoughts arise. Anyone else like this also?

lol yes it happens to me
i get so desperate and just want to disappear or throw myself from a bridge after realizing how bad i fucked up

 

[dontletthembribeyou]

Same. I have known nothing in this life but humiliation

 

[starboy2k]

honestly, same.

i've definitely said a lot of dumb shit throughout my life, and i've also said things that would make me sound psychotic, but i eventually ended up being right.

i realized it's MUCH better to stfu and just let everyone else talk. you'll quickly find out the same people that constantly undermine and ridicule the things you say and the way you feel are genuinely as stupid as you. (if you feel like you are, not calling you stupid.)

it won't stop the suicidal ideation, because having to live with humans like this is annoying asf, but it does justify why you choose to be one of the quiet ones.

 

[negi-maguro]

Yes, I have burned a lot of bridge from the things I've said and also unsaid. It seems like every time I open my mouth, I ended up hurting other or got hurt myself. I ended up curating the people I talk to, but this ended up making me with just a few friends. Hell, I ended up scaring my best friend because I keep talking to him. For people that I can't curate, like my parents, we just keep fighting and hating each other because we keep running our mouth to a point where this relationship is the biggest reason I want to ctb.

 

[Gangrel]

yeah i hate myself pretty much lol not much to say about it, it's the old clichê being awake at night cringing at the things that i said

 

[braintorture]

This is so real. I get anxiety attacks or swear loudly when it happens lol

 

[lastsunset]

Anyone want to CTB because of things you said? I've been running my dumb mouth my whole life. I have said so many embarrassing things. Broken promises, pseudointellectualism, delusions, unwarranted insults, and bizarre head-scratchers that make no sense. "It is not what goes into a man's mouth but what comes out that defiles him." Cringe memories hit me like bullets all the time. How am I supposed to live a natural lifespan this way?

"Cringe memories hit me like bullets" thank you for finally putting words to a feeling I've tried to explain so long lol. That shit literally physically hurts

 

[alwayspissedoff]

for me I even go one step ahead and feel actively embarrased about things that have any relation to me. let it be something I said, a username I picked, a project I made that I now find shitty, or not having things to say in certain situations. it truly is draining.

 

[Realog11]

"Cringe memories hit me like bullets" thank you for finally putting words to a feeling I've tried to explain so long lol. That shit literally physically hurts

Yeah same