Have you been fortunate enough to able to identify what started it all?
Please select up to 3 responses.
Please select up to 3 responses.
Smilla
Visionary
- Apr 30, 2018
- 2,549
windingdown
Specialist
- Sep 10, 2018
- 367
It's actually existential for me. There is almost nothing in life that feels enjoyable nor satisfying to me any longer. I think that if my circumstances were perfect (a lot of money and security would go a long way), I may be able to hang in there for the long haul. But I scarcely know what to fill up the hours and days with, when there is nothing I really like to do in life any longer. Meanwhile, my body ages, which brings a host of unpleasantries (physical discomfort, decreasing attractiveness), and that is only going in one direction. I just feel that life is rigged (as it were) against human happiness. Or at least my own.
Iwant2sleepforever
Experienced
- Sep 8, 2018
- 227
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,339
Iwant2sleepforever
Experienced
- Sep 8, 2018
- 227
throwaway123
Hell0
- Aug 5, 2018
- 1,446
PatKat
Meh
- Aug 9, 2018
- 1,025
I chose other since everything in life is my reason. I dont want to deal with any of this shit anymore.
No enjoyment and my funds are drying up. If I've raised extra 50-100k, I'd just stay following the inertia.
But without it - whats the point?
Money makes most things in life less bitter. It's still same shit, but less stinky.
But without it - whats the point?
Money makes most things in life less bitter. It's still same shit, but less stinky.
Wantingpeace
Wizard
- Aug 16, 2018
- 672
Medically lobotomised was not an option there. By I think the severe damage from a drug is due to genetic ability to process it.
My mother has always been abusive toward me and my brother. We were neglected by our father as well. Feeling dysphoric (not gender-wise) as long as I rememeber. In general, all the shit keeps on piling up and it never seems to end. Though, the thing that fucked up me the most is J. Was madly in love with him, but I think he just wanted to hook up with me, I don't know. He made feel at peace and safe for the first time in years. At one point he stopped replying to my texts, started ignoring me completely and now he gives me menacing stares whenever we meet in the school hallway. I didn't ask him to commit his life, but he hasn't even bothered to give me any explaination. It's so absurd.
sadak_the_wanderer
An appropriate painting
- Mar 19, 2018
- 245
I cannot say it was just one thing. I might have been able to bear up under one thing, perhaps even two. I can only try to lasso the causes and pull them together in a noose that says "Hopeless Loser." I am a loser in many respects and have absolutely no anticipation of this changing.
Cherry Crumpet
Hiraeth
- May 7, 2018
- 267
Having almost my entire family turn against me. That was a hard pill to swallow.
I would have trouble categorizing the root cause, as it's a snowball effect for me, but at the end of the day..I can't help but think it was all my fault.
Well then I guess we are all losers.
You know I never considered "Yourself" as an option, even though most of us blame ourselves.
NOISYMIND
Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
- Sep 11, 2018
- 164
Drugs. Recreational. 17 years ago. I've been recovering and relapsing over and over again ever since. Each time because of one or a combination of the above, or no reason at all.
