During the week, my life is an absolute nightmare. I used to work for a company where everyone got along and the owner truly cared about you. It sold and now I work for a heartless public company that absolutely is the worst place I've ever worked.
I'm also divorced. I was a bad husband and father. I see all my sins clearly in hindsight. Regret eats away at me.
Saturday's are the best day for me to go to the gun store. Get a lesson. Buy a gun. I've already gone in and talked to them. I know the process.
But another Saturday is gone and I didn't do anything but couch rot
And so I'm up again at 4 AM every horrible thing in my life is clear to me.
And I wish I had gone. This happens every weekend. SI? A coward? Both? It's not that i secretly want to live. I definitely do not.
I'm not the only one stuck. It's 4 am and I'm frustrated. Tired of life. Tired of insomnia. Tired of the pain.
I'm also divorced. I was a bad husband and father. I see all my sins clearly in hindsight. Regret eats away at me.
Saturday's are the best day for me to go to the gun store. Get a lesson. Buy a gun. I've already gone in and talked to them. I know the process.
But another Saturday is gone and I didn't do anything but couch rot
And so I'm up again at 4 AM every horrible thing in my life is clear to me.
And I wish I had gone. This happens every weekend. SI? A coward? Both? It's not that i secretly want to live. I definitely do not.
I'm not the only one stuck. It's 4 am and I'm frustrated. Tired of life. Tired of insomnia. Tired of the pain.
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