Venting Ridiculous routine

[Trisolaris]

About two weeks ago I started trying to hang myself (partial) every day after work. I tried different ropes and positions and nothing works. I can't lose consciousness. I barely function at work and at home and the only thing giving me some comfort is the thought of death but I just can't get it done. I guess this is what rock bottom feels like. I'm in hell.

 

[R_N]

About two weeks ago I started trying to hang myself (partial) every day after work. I tried different ropes and positions and nothing works. I can't lose consciousness. I barely function at work and at home and the only thing giving me some comfort is the thought of death but I just can't get it done. I guess this is what rock bottom feels like. I'm in hell.

You are not alone. Most people here failed partial. It is not an easy method.

 

[calendulo]

Yes, it is a routine, I would not say ridiculous, but dangerous yes.
guess you might changing method.

 

[Trisolaris]

Yes, it is a routine, I would not say ridiculous, but dangerous yes.
guess you might changing method.

I don't know what to change to since I don't have access to N or SN in my country. The only thing available is trying to hang myself at my parents' shed, where there's a better option for the ligature point.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

Can you compress your carotids and make yourself get dizzy/lightheaded with your hands?

If so, i would try tourniquet.