Review, if possible...

[El Fin]

I've gone through multiple resources on this site, and am incredibly sorry if this question seems stupid....[yes, i've gone through non-methods that shouldn't be attempted], however, i am curious and would really benefit from a second opinion.

Can I use DXM 100 ml, with vodka 500 ml, with (Gabator NT - 400 mg) x2, and sleep for 8 hours and not wake up? I mean, how i've imagined it always is --- i take a separate bottle, like a water bottle, mix these all up, chug the concoction, and then maybe also use a plastic/cloth bag over my head and asphyxiate? In an intoxicated state, i certainly wouldn't fight a bag off of my head, right? can someone tell me if this'd work?

or maybe some other method of asphyxiation?

One thing, however, that I am scared of, is experiencing consciousness regardless of the method i choose. I am a god damn wuss and coward irl.... as it is in life, so it shall be in death lmao. which is why I am incredibly scared of panicking and chickening out last minute.

But then again, asphyxia seems slow... maybe a combination of methods? I would prefer stabbing myself, however, just the thought of it repulses me...

 

[RyleIsRiledUp]

Hey, I dunno what your going thru and stuff so first of all, I'm so sorry you have had to go thru all the shyt that led you to this decision. And second, I'm no professional or anything, just another kid who's kinda suicidal (i'm kinda better now).

So, i tried to OD once and lemme tell you, It's NOT worth it. not the method, but the whole act of suicide. The mortality rate of any method is reaalllyy low. And lemme tell you what happened to me.

So i was going thru stuff (still kinda am) and took a few many pills of meds. So first I was like "Finally! I'm out". but when the meds kicked in, I panicked. when you come to realize that there's actually a tiny chance you can die, it's scary. I was like peak suicidal at that point. I wasn't doing well at studies, i was failing in every subjects, i was having issues cuz of my misdiagnosis stuff, i was really a mess cuz of my abuse as a kiddo. When I felt the shortness of breath and got sleepy, I panicked. I was like so scared. I was at school then, so my teachers took me to the nearby hospital. I was saved, thankfully ig. I realised how cooked i was, brother (i call everyone brother dun mind).
Failed attempts are more common that you think and they can be devastating. You can be permanently disabled, you get into worse situations, smtimes end up in psych wards. It's just more suffering then. I got into problems with my school, i was suspended for 4 months, i got into issues with cops (I managed to get em off my back by just lying and how it wasnt an attempt really and blah blah).
I've heard stories of people who survived their attempt, even met a few, they all said it; It was not worth it. It's a mess and scary. MOst people who make an attempt later regret it.

Honey, ik it's hard. I dunno exactly your case but if it's got you right here in this state of mind, im sur eit's really bad. But do you really wanna risk suffering more? It's not worth it. I promise you, It's not.

I hope you get well soon and consider my words. I dunno you, but I believe in you. I truly do.

 

[El Fin]

Hey, I dunno what your going thru and stuff so first of all, I'm so sorry you have had to go thru all the shyt that led you to this decision. And second, I'm no professional or anything, just another kid who's kinda suicidal (i'm kinda better now).

So, i tried to OD once and lemme tell you, It's NOT worth it. not the method, but the whole act of suicide. The mortality rate of any method is reaalllyy low. And lemme tell you what happened to me.

So i was going thru stuff (still kinda am) and took a few many pills of meds. So first I was like "Finally! I'm out". but when the meds kicked in, I panicked. when you come to realize that there's actually a tiny chance you can die, it's scary. I was like peak suicidal at that point. I wasn't doing well at studies, i was failing in every subjects, i was having issues cuz of my misdiagnosis stuff, i was really a mess cuz of my abuse as a kiddo. When I felt the shortness of breath and got sleepy, I panicked. I was like so scared. I was at school then, so my teachers took me to the nearby hospital. I was saved, thankfully ig. I realised how cooked i was, brother (i call everyone brother dun mind).
Failed attempts are more common that you think and they can be devastating. You can be permanently disabled, you get into worse situations, smtimes end up in psych wards. It's just more suffering then. I got into problems with my school, i was suspended for 4 months, i got into issues with cops (I managed to get em off my back by just lying and how it wasnt an attempt really and blah blah).
I've heard stories of people who survived their attempt, even met a few, they all said it; It was not worth it. It's a mess and scary. MOst people who make an attempt later regret it.

Honey, ik it's hard. I dunno exactly your case but if it's got you right here in this state of mind, im sur eit's really bad. But do you really wanna risk suffering more? It's not worth it. I promise you, It's not.

I hope you get well soon and consider my words. I dunno you, but I believe in you. I truly do.

Hey, thanks a ton for responding.... I'm incredibly sorry for what you had to go through. People sometimes can be apathetic as fuck. It also feels like I read about me, if that makes sense, the way you've described the academic decline, the relief of wanting to get out, but then panicking.... the last time i took smth, i was able to sleep it off... though i was incredibly sleepy and drowsy the next day. I also have an incredibly important test tomorrow... lol.. It hurts to know that the potential that I had once, is now wasted... I am truly uncertain as to whether I would regret making an attempt..

Glad you're alive tho, brother. How are you doing right now?

 

[RyleIsRiledUp]

Hey, thanks a ton for responding.... I'm incredibly sorry for what you had to go through. People sometimes can be apathetic as fuck. It also feels like I read about me, if that makes sense, the way you've described the academic decline, the relief of wanting to get out, but then panicking.... the last time i took smth, i was able to sleep it off... though i was incredibly sleepy and drowsy the next day. I also have an incredibly important test tomorrow... lol.. It hurts to know that the potential that I had once, is now wasted... I am truly uncertain as to whether I would regret making an attempt..

Glad you're alive tho, brother. How are you doing right now?

Heyy, us gng. I hv an important test on monday too
I'm kinda okay-ish now. I was doing better but recently things kinda derailed and my meds hv increased. But i think i can do it. I've made it this far so I guess I can stay a lil bit more.
Wouldn't like my enemies to outlive me Lol.
Jokes aside, I hope you do your best in that upcoming test. You dun hv to ace it, okei? Just do your fcking best. That's resilience; being able to do smthing to your best capacity while feelin like a piece of crap. Your potential is not wasted, honey. It's just buried under a lot of stress, issues and pain. You dun hv to dig out right away. That'll burn you out. Try a lil. Just tiny baby crawls. Not even steps, just start to crawl for now. then we can step, and finally maybe even run.

I've been telling this to myself and it's helping me out kinda.
Just dun hurt yourself, honey. It's not worth it. I promise you.

You still have time to fix this shyt. Dun let those fcking demons outlive you. (Sometimes spite helps you live through it. I'm not letting my abuser outlive me.)

Have a grt day/evening/night. You can do this. Im not saying cliche shyt agian. I fr believe for the most part of me if we all try little by little, we can at least make it 1% better for us.

Take care, brotherr<3