Discussion religious trauma

[kindawannacrylol]

Religion honestly destroyed me and still is destroying me. For those of you that know me, I was raised in a strict catholic christian home, and my parents are still practicing and extremely strict. I also identify as a lesbian and those two things don't mesh at all. I was introduced to the concepts of the fear of hell, the command to not question and simply say obey, the idea that im to do what's 'holy' and not what makes me happy. And after a while i became extremely religious myself, and i hated my lesbian identity so much i suppressed it, so deeply, i believed it was demonic and ended up hurting myself so much trying to 'correct' myself. Religion has left so many deep and irreversible wounds in me. It's almost like an addiction, without it i feel so empty, with it i feel so full and yet so deeply sad at the same time. Now I continuously have vivid nightmares every single night, some days about hell, about my family rejecting me for my homosexuality. I wish i had never encountered christianity it's hurt me so much i feel so helpless. I feel like not many people talk about the immense trauma that comes with deep religious indoctrination

 

[Rational man]

A situation that so many people find themselves confronting each day and yet the church has its own far share of heretics preaching from the pulpit !.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

As a Pansexual person I can confirm that Catholic religion is very damaging at long period of time if your sexuality is other than pure hetero without any kinks. I have all kinks in the world by the way. I attended to catholic high school and it was good expierience because my classmates wasn't fanatics .They deeply cared about me and each other and it was really healing expierience. I don't practise any religion anymore because in terms of any monoteistic religion I'm the ultimate lust sinner in Islam for example i would be literally killed for my urge. I just accept myself against whole world. If I don't hurt anybody why I have to condemn myself I was born hipersexual I didn't choose this hormons just hit me and I gain every colour of the rainbow. Religious trauma can hit hard because it is based on sharp dualism good evil etc but world and human nature is much more deeper and complicated than that.