3FormsofUnhappiness
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- Jul 7, 2023
- 8
I feel like the only way for me to be released is to CTB - but that is far too inaccessible. My family raised me Catholic and they often told me that if I committed I would go to hell and such. I claim to myself I do not believe that as much but deep down inside I am always anxious that putting a relief to my own pain causes me more pain, what if I go to hell? My family would be disappointed in knowing a family member is going to therapy as that claims they are mentally unwell. I have begged my mother when I was a child for me to get help, but now that I am older I have no more recourse; nothing will help me anymore. What more would they think of me if I ever did this? But if I'm being honest, I feel relieved in the thought that they'd dislike me. But now that I think of it - if Catholic beliefs are true or not I'd be going to hell if I die through time or if I CTB either way..