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[bluesoapyskies]

Some will never understand just how important websites and communities like this are for people out there. I have had failed attempts before. My most notable ones were when I was a teenager. Of course, I didn't plan well (if at all) and it was a rash "oh a bottle of Tylenol this should do the job!". Other times, my methods were quite reliable however I got caught before I could execute. Don't make the same mistakes I did. Secrecy, privacy, concealing, and being alone are SO important. Don't underestimate other people not finding out. I'm talking about adults here. That coworker who you thought didn't care, might start to notice. That neighbour, that old friend, the estranged family member, people can sneak up on you in ways you don't anticipate.

I always need to have an exit ready. Does anyone else feel like this? I used to get panic attacks after my failed attempts. I believed that I would never succeed and that I'd be stuck here, enduring a painful nightmare daily. This mindset pushes you to be very rash, and those "pro-lifers" don't seem to understand that. If people want to die, they will find a way regardless. But if there isn't access to any proper resources, people will likely choose something rash, violent, or graphic. Since around the age of 12, I've always needed to know that there was a way out. That when life finally reaches the point where it starts to nudge me, I know I'll be "okay".

This post is a thank you to the mods and to let people out there know that they're not alone in their feelings. I do feel quite sad we've come to this point. It's cruel that life pushes people this way. But I also feel immense comfort and relief knowing that I'm not stuck. It's going to be okay.

I hope that everyone finds their peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Failing ctb is what sounds so horrible to me, I think if there was a guaranteed, painless and straightforward suicide method option it would be such a relief for suicidal people. It's just so inhumane how people are denied that and are expected to just suffer endlessly instead, but anyway I understand why you would feel relieved not to feel so trapped here anymore, I wish you the best.