
EternalShore
Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
- Jun 9, 2023
- 1,364
50% of my classes are engaged, married, and/or have children~ That and sports/food (yay~ more things I hate!) are like 90% of everything they talk about, so it's not like I'm going to be starting any relationships anytime soon~ :/ How the heck am I expected to live like this is just all normal and stuff? :///
I know that many of you don't care about any of that (especially the children part), but personally, I NEED ALL of that (even just to stay sane and not rot in continuous jealousy and agony), and yet I receive not even a drop of hope it'll happen anytime soon~ :/
and yet I'm expected to just deal with it, watch everyone else be happy, while I'm just miserable in a corner and shut up about it~ oooo~ If you're not happy, it's probably the classes and degree you're taking, not the fact that everyone else has everything you want, and you don't get squat! >:( "Focus on your education first~" :ppp
I'd be happy cleaning toilets for a living if I just was married with kids~ heck~ I've already had a job doing that for $2 an hour~ xD unfortunately, I wasn't mentally fit to go for another round of it~ Fun fact: it's not my fault I'm not mentally fit for it. It's society's fault! If I could get the things I need, I could actually be happy and be able to be everything everyone else wants me to be. Probably is that they're not supplying and until they can, I can't do anything~ :/
All this relationship stuff is RATRED tbh~ It's like you gotta improve yourself, figure yourself out, get a proper job, become mentally stable, etc. before you can do it, but I just can't until I get it~ People don't want to be with someone terminally depressed~ the thing is~ I wouldn't be terminally depressed with someone I could actually see every day!
but all that is just me coping tbh~ :( I see it happening all this time with people who don't have that but NEVER to me! I'm hopeless~ :( No one likes me, and I don't even know why~ :( I suppose it's because I don't fit society's roles as set out for me by my birth. >:(
I know that many of you don't care about any of that (especially the children part), but personally, I NEED ALL of that (even just to stay sane and not rot in continuous jealousy and agony), and yet I receive not even a drop of hope it'll happen anytime soon~ :/
and yet I'm expected to just deal with it, watch everyone else be happy, while I'm just miserable in a corner and shut up about it~ oooo~ If you're not happy, it's probably the classes and degree you're taking, not the fact that everyone else has everything you want, and you don't get squat! >:( "Focus on your education first~" :ppp
I'd be happy cleaning toilets for a living if I just was married with kids~ heck~ I've already had a job doing that for $2 an hour~ xD unfortunately, I wasn't mentally fit to go for another round of it~ Fun fact: it's not my fault I'm not mentally fit for it. It's society's fault! If I could get the things I need, I could actually be happy and be able to be everything everyone else wants me to be. Probably is that they're not supplying and until they can, I can't do anything~ :/
All this relationship stuff is RATRED tbh~ It's like you gotta improve yourself, figure yourself out, get a proper job, become mentally stable, etc. before you can do it, but I just can't until I get it~ People don't want to be with someone terminally depressed~ the thing is~ I wouldn't be terminally depressed with someone I could actually see every day!
but all that is just me coping tbh~ :( I see it happening all this time with people who don't have that but NEVER to me! I'm hopeless~ :( No one likes me, and I don't even know why~ :( I suppose it's because I don't fit society's roles as set out for me by my birth. >:(