Relasping back into suicidal thoughts

[LikeAPendulum]

2 weeks ago, an old friend gave me a stern talk which lit something inside me that burned away all my suicidal desires. I went to a gym for once in the days after. ironically, my SN arrived a few days after. But as the weeks passed, i suppose that energy ran out and now i've been relasping back into suicidal desires.

Its been such a surreal experience, and i ask myself, to be, or not to be?
i want to ask my friend to give me another verbal kick in the head to set me straight again.

 

[p4nic]

The fact that you are still wondering which decision is the best gives me the impression that maybe there's still a reason, as small as it might be, that has the enough power to keep you here with us.
Maybe asking your friend is worth a try.
Whatever decision you make, I'm sure it will be the best for you.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

What did your friend say that wiped away all suicidal thoughts?

 

[Valky]

I agree with @p4nic there still seems to be hope for you. Talk with your friend again.

But what did he say? Maybe we can help you out that way too :)

 

[itsallpointless]

What motivates you in life? Is there something in you you have a strong urge to defend?