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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
Is there anything you could have done to avoid this Fate?
 
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Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
888
I'm sure I could have, but at the end of the day I was born like this, and quite believe it was largely unavoidable. But yes, there are things I would have done differently.
 
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Toxic Positivity

Toxic Positivity

At my own pace
Feb 11, 2022
95
I wish I had not done such a good job of driving away the people who care about me. But I think I've learned enough to avoid common pitfalls.

1.) Don't take out your pain on other people.

2.) Be wise enough to know when you're doing #1.

3.) Recognize that if people don't want to be your friend, that's their choice and handle it with grace.

4.) Don't cheat on people, don't get yourself into situations where you'll cheat. If you're dissatisfied, communicate that.

5.) Don't build yourself up at others' expense

6.) Isolation is weakness. Interconnectedness is strength.

I wish I had a better grasp of all these idiosyncratic principles.
 
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hopelessgirl

hopelessgirl

Mage
Oct 12, 2021
512
Is there anything you could have done to avoid this Fate?
I wasn't smart enough to see how good I was at failing in life. I thought I could fake my way through life, listening more to others than myself. Or whatever. And now I've worshiped death way to long to go back.
 
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Myl

Anhedonia.
Jan 23, 2019
3,219
Yea there's a lot of things I could have done.

Just a few I can think of immediately.
Not be such a loner when I was in school.
Dropping out at 14 probably wasn't the best idea.
Doing things whilst I was still a teenager.
Not trying to ctb when I probably wasn't ready yet.
Not do all the dumb shit I did at the end of last year.


But I did what I did and I'm here now. The only thing left for me is dying.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,293
No, in my case there is nothing that could have been done. I cannot imagine myself dying from anything other than suicide. I have never wanted to be alive and I never will. I am simply not meant for this world, I should have never been born in the first place. I cannot cope with life. I also do not want to exist in a world where there is so much pain and suffering, I just prefer the sound of non existence personally. I was perfectly fine not existing until I was forced to live.
 
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Red Scare

Red Scare

Wizard
Mar 1, 2022
647
Yes, I feel like if it is my fault my husband died. If it weren't for me he would still be here, and alive. I will never not blame myself for his death, no matter what anyone says.

The I only thing I can do is ctb. That is the only thing that will make any of this better.
 
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JustAMatterOfTime

JustAMatterOfTime

Fragile
Mar 21, 2021
905
None, my brain is wired wrong, no matter what I try it will always be wired wrong there is nothing I can do, it is faulty.
 
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Sea Turtle

Sea Turtle

She/Her ✨ Achieving True Peace
Aug 12, 2020
346
Avoid? No. Delay? Already have, though I am not sure that was for the best. I don't remember a time in which I didn't feel this way, and that I was not certain I would die by my own hands, and maybe it is better this way. Leave by my free will, rather then be trapped in this cruel world.
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,382
I could never avoid my mental health issues as they are genetic in nature. My "dad" was NUTS, and everything that I have heard about my "family" going back in time is not good, in fact horrible.

I got stuck with crappy genes, lucky me, I guess.

Walter
 
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Crazy4u

Crazy4u

Enlightened
Sep 29, 2021
1,318
No. Most of the issues are driven by genetics and circumstances
 
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Versailles

Versailles

Enlightened
Oct 1, 2020
1,652
No, loneliness, disability and autism were two things I couldn't avoid.
 
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som1

.
Dec 22, 2021
137
no, I tried my best.
 
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SpaceCadet

SpaceCadet

‎In a perfect world, nobody would be suicidal
Feb 27, 2022
193
Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
785
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CiproKilledMe

CiproKilledMe

Experienced
Mar 23, 2021
243
Trusting my doctor to 'First, do no harm' + ignorantly thinking the FDA was actually protecting us.
Big, big mistake.
 
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Nolan96

Nolan96

Mage
Feb 12, 2022
506
I wish I could think of something. I feel a constant sense of regret but when I look back and try to pinpoint the juncture where things went wrong, not even the clear vision of hindsight offers any real solutions. Every diverging path just seems like it would have led somewhere even worse. I just feel so frustrated and hopeless.

I guess one thing I wish is that I'd taken my studies more seriously. Was that really practical considering how low I was? Not really. Would it really have made a difference? I can't see clearly how it would have. Still, being a dropout is something that bothers me.
 
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myopybyproxy

flickerbeat \\ gibberish-noise
Dec 18, 2021
864
I wish I could think of something. I feel a constant sense of regret but when I look back and try to pinpoint the juncture where things went wrong, not even the clear vision of hindsight offers any real solutions. Every diverging path just seems like it would have led somewhere even worse. I just feel so frustrated and hopeless.

I guess one thing I wish is that I'd taken my studies more seriously. Was that really practical considering how low I was? Not really. Would it really have made a difference? I can't see clearly how it would have. Still, being a dropout is something that bothers me.
I feel the exact same way.
 
rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,707
Not have been conceived.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
If I had been more careful with my spending and conscious with my investments I would be secure if not thriving. I've always had a fear of money and risk of any sort. A low threshold for panic and overwhelming anxiety. I never properly adjusted to adult life.
 
Intelligent_Panic99

Intelligent_Panic99

Student
Jan 4, 2022
114
I know it's not possible, but I feel as if I was born wanting to die.
 
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S like Siren

S like Siren

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,564
Apparently it was my tragic destiny to end like this...all i lived and experienced since i was born led me to this shit,i did what i could all alone to save me,it was not enough but i can't blame myself...i know i tried hard
 
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enau

enau

Student
Apr 15, 2021
142
yes, im an incarnate regret

i regret that i not saved myself from fate, i known it will come, and i did nothing than daydreaming, i learned nothing from this life , even if i know too much in the same time, i didnt practice.So i never known some fun, like true friensdship, or love , when you accompagny youserlf trhough life, i was alone all the time, because i thought .. i coulndt not experiment anything else, or because im very slow and misfit.. i didnt try that much to struggle for me and my life, because im lazy, and no gifted with life.because im weak i suppose, or because the world is ugly(and when i tried, i fell into toxic people x) ).. i dont have any good memories, just imagination


i miss good memories.. not an happy life, but some good memories, even if it would have ending the same way
as an autistic transgender-brain- like( but not assumed )weirdos, i never felt any kindness toward me, and my pas /relationship /family issue are mon only experience of the humanity and it was shitty
 
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Experienced
Mar 5, 2022
226
I wish I avoided a million things, honestly.
 
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piger

piger

Every waking moment I spiral further into insanity
Dec 11, 2021
74
Is there anything you could have done to avoid this Fate?
I broke my code, I let myself give in to impulse and anxiety and lost someone I cared about a lot. If I hadn't been a huge idiot with her, I wouldn't be in this position But I think i was always predestined for this fate anyway and I've known that for years.
 
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StarryStarry

StarryStarry

Cat Lady
Oct 25, 2021
749
I wish I hadn't been born.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
Stay away from those (men). If I was educated and not so desperate because I felt so lonely and unloved that would have never happened sure I'd still be miserable and lonely and eventually CTB but at least I wasn't used/abused
 
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Spiritual survivor

Spiritual survivor

A born again but occasionally suicidal
Feb 13, 2022
510
I think some of it could have been avoided if I was better educated about some things. Not all of it but the more life altering mistakes for sure.
 
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