Discussion Regrets

[germany]

Do any of you have regrets about what you haven't done yet/have done? I regret a lot of things and wish I could do everything I want to do, like learn to skate and dance in public and fall in love and take a plane with no destination in mind. Does this make me a fake? I really want to just end it but at the same time i wonder if maybe i should stick around.

 

[Deleted member 14386]

I am in the same boat, I'm commited to ctb but I've given myself a few months to maybe see if I can find anything to keep me here, if not...it's nice to know I haveanother option

 

[waterbottleman]

I wish I traveled more when I was in my early twenties.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I don't think you're a fake.

Learning new things you enjoy may bring joy to your life, new experiences, new people, purpose, and not just a sense of hope but answered hope.

As someone said today on another thread, some people come to SS seeking death and find life. If you have the means and the desire to do any or all of these things, my heartfelt advice is to go for it. If they don't pan out, ctb will still be an option, but it seems like for now you have better and more desirable options at your disposal.

 

[the box is empty]

It doesn't make you fake. It's natural to have regrets. I regret a lot of things I never got a chance to do. I also regret a lot of my choices that negatively impacted others. It caused me a lot of turmoil that just looped over and over in my mind for years. The decision to CTB has helped me assuage regrets somewhat but they are still there.

 

[s1mplem3]

There are so many things I'd like to try or learn. The most I want to find out what is love, how is it to have someone that loves you and wants you. I want to know how is it to have kids, to hear "father" at least once in my life. Also I want to see whole world, people, cultures, food, learn languages and other sciences. Life I can only dream about.

 

[Mizzmini45]

I carry a dream book with me everywhere. It's of all the things I want to accomplish. I have accomplished a lot of the things because I was very introspective even at a early age. I knew I had to make this count. There are no reruns in life. Start now! U can still learn to skate, dance in public.. etc. I still have a few things I need to experience or what to experience again until I ctb. You can do it! I wish I knew you. I'd love to find another passionate person. I could teach you to skate and I have danced in public. I wish we could inspire each other. You prob could show me something I wanna do and never have done but you have. Sometimes being around someone like this makes me want to accomplish my goals

 

[waterbottleman]

There are so many things I'd like to try or learn. The most I want to find out what is love, how is it to have someone that loves you and wants you. I want to know how is it to have kids, to hear "father" at least once in my life. Also I want to see whole world, people, cultures, food, learn languages and other sciences. Life I can only dream about.

Shit I'd be happy as a clam if someone was even attracted to me, told me I was attractive, actually wanted me to hold them, kiss them, have sex with them, etc. I'm not even asking the universe to be loved by anyone at this point lol.

It really wouldn't take much for me to be happy and grateful.

When it comes to romance/sex I'm the equivalent of a homeless guy who's been going dumpster diving next to a restaurant and not even finding any scraps lmao.

 

[Deleted member 14386]

Shit I'd be happy as a clam if someone was even attracted to me, told me I was attractive, actually wanted me to hold them, kiss them, have sex with them, etc. I'm not even asking the universe to be loved by anyone at this point lol.

It really wouldn't take much for me to be happy and grateful.

When it comes to romance/sex I'm the equivalent of a homeless guy who's been going dumpster diving next to a restaurant and not even finding any scraps lmao.

Pretty much same, I'm a mid-twenty virgin who's never even kissed a girl. Holy shit that's a giant regret I have

 

[waterbottleman]

Pretty much same, I'm a mid-twenty virgin who's never even kissed a girl. Holy shit that's a giant regret I have

Damn, I feel your pain. Luckily I was found attractive by some girls when I was a teenager so I was able to experience some things (except sex). It's when I became an adult and went to college that women's interest in me went to zero.

I actually just lost my virginity 2 months ago in January. In fact tomorrow is my 2 month anniversary of losing my virginity lol. I got tired of being a virgin (I'm 29) so I went to a legal brothel in Nevada to turn in my v-card.

I'd recommend doing the same thing if you are comfortable with it. I used to be morally against hiring a sex worker, but my will broke. I craved the touch of an attractive woman too much so I gave in and said "fuck it" flew over there and had sex multiple times. Now that is one decision I don't regret and don't give a flying fuck if anyone judges me for doing that.

 

[Deleted member 14386]

Damn, I feel your pain. Luckily I was found attractive by some girls when I was a teenager so I was able to experience some things (except sex). It's when I became an adult and went to college that women's interest in me went to zero.

I actually just lost my virginity 2 months ago in January. In fact tomorrow is my 2 month anniversary of losing my virginity lol. I got tired of being a virgin (I'm 29) so I went to a legal brothel in Nevada to turn in my v-card.

I'd recommend doing the same thing if you are comfortable with it. I used to be morally against hiring a sex worker, but my will broke. I craved the touch of an attractive woman too much so I gave in and said "fuck it" flew over there and had sex multiple times. Now that is one decision I don't regret and don't give a flying fuck if anyone judges me for doing that.

Yeah I just completly lost all interest in girls for the past 10 years, never had anyone to talk to about it as a kid so even when girls were telling me they liked me I didn't know what to do . I've thought about doing that, what was it like the first time? lol pm me if you want I'm just curious how it went down, was she normalized to virgins and was it awkward at all?

 

[s1mplem3]

Shit I'd be happy as a clam if someone was even attracted to me, told me I was attractive, actually wanted me to hold them, kiss them, have sex with them, etc. I'm not even asking the universe to be loved by anyone at this point lol.

It really wouldn't take much for me to be happy and grateful.

When it comes to romance/sex I'm the equivalent of a homeless guy who's been going dumpster diving next to a restaurant and not even finding any scraps lmao.

You can't kiss or have sex with someone without love, it's pointless. If this matters to you, you can just find a prostitute, but there is much more than just sex. I'm not animal, I'm human and my heart wants to love.

 

[2Min2Midnight]

I have a long list of regrets that run through my mind on a loop every other day. Should have done this, could have done that.

 

[Deleted member 14386]

You can't kiss or have sex with someone without love, it's pointless. If this matters to you, you can just find a prostitute, but there is much more than just sex. I'm not animal, I'm human and my heart wants to love.

I don't have time for love honestly, but a prostitute...

 

[Donk]

i regret not able to be a father. treat him better than how my father treated me

 

[MissingIt]

In addition to the usual list of regrets, I always wanted to go skydiving. Unfortunately, it isn't going to happen.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I can't fall asleep today because I can't stop thinking about regret.
This is torture, same thought goes in my head for hours and hours, every time causing emotional pain.
I am so tired of this.

 

[AcornUnderground]

Damn, I feel your pain. Luckily I was found attractive by some girls when I was a teenager so I was able to experience some things (except sex). It's when I became an adult and went to college that women's interest in me went to zero.

I actually just lost my virginity 2 months ago in January. In fact tomorrow is my 2 month anniversary of losing my virginity lol. I got tired of being a virgin (I'm 29) so I went to a legal brothel in Nevada to turn in my v-card.

I'd recommend doing the same thing if you are comfortable with it. I used to be morally against hiring a sex worker, but my will broke. I craved the touch of an attractive woman too much so I gave in and said "fuck it" flew over there and had sex multiple times. Now that is one decision I don't regret and don't give a flying fuck if anyone judges me for doing that.

Nice!

 

[Aeathelina]

All my regrets are the reason I want out of this world.

 

[faust]

My life could be way different. When I say that, it is not just an assumption, this is harsh reality.
When I was a teen if I were not so depressed, I could write multiple books, multiple poems and get some real results.
After graduating from school I could work a little bit, leave everything behind and just travel around the world.
I could kiss a girl who loved me.
Well, there were plenty of things that could be changed. Now it's too late.

 

[Mr2005]

I regret what I didn't do for sure. I could never have imagined how costly that would be or how quickly the time would go. I regret that I'm in this position because of it

 

[Broken Chimera]

I regret that there were so many things that I couldn't do anything about. If it weren't for those things, life could've been nice for me.

 

[Green Destiny]

Got plenty of regrets now, and I'll probably have plenty when I die.

 

[Heartsick Traveler]

You can't kiss or have sex with someone without love, it's pointless. If this matters to you, you can just find a prostitute, but there is much more than just sex. I'm not animal, I'm human and my heart wants to love.

Love is the ideal, of course, but the absence thereof is what drives many to end (by suicide) the pain of loneliness. This doesn't mean that sensual physical connection with a kind stranger can't offer some much needed comfort.

 

[porfin1234]

I wish I had ignored my suicidal ideation and useless feelings years ago and focused on the things I love. Nature, dance, music, spirituality, art, family. Then I wouldn't have sabotaged it all and let myself be happy. Last year I finally was in touch with my highest self.. so close. Too little too late. I ran from finally being happy.

 

[voyager]

Mmh, must say at my lowest I didn't really care about anything anymore. Had originally planned to do some things before ctb. The usual, hooking up, skydiving, wingsuiting, surfing, travel and so forth. But when it got serious all I wanted was ctb. I simply had no desires anymore, nor the energy for them. At best maybe get drunk the night before, music and movies, ruminate a little on my life and that's that.

Not sure what comes after death, but one likely possibility is being reborn into the same life over and over. Death merely being some type of amnesia. Thus, I thought I'd force myself to do certain things, just in case voyager has to relive these experiences infinite times. So, his life should end in good. Also wanted to see if I was even capable of feeling any more emotions tbh.

I'd recommend doing the same if you can still find something you want to do and can muster the energy.

 

[2Min2Midnight]

In addition to the usual list of regrets, I always wanted to go skydiving. Unfortunately, it isn't going to happen.

Funny you mention this as I have considered skydiving as a means to CTB, go through the certification to solo and then forget to pull the chute on your first jump.