Discussion Regret

[revolucion]

The only regret I have left in my life is that I still have not killed myself. I am amazed at how pathetic my life is and I am still here. I am low as hell and whatever that is in me, like my soul or brain or mind or whatever that semi degraded piece in me that you want to name begs for death. It is only death and the thought of it that calms me down. I am tired of everything around me and that includes myself the most. I did a lot for a good life but the thing is life is not for everyone. I quit!

 

[Overnoutofhere]

Me too!

 

[Sensei]

I'm sorry. The feeling of defeat can be crushing. What makes you feel that your life is pathetic?

 

[revolucion]

I'm sorry. The feeling of defeat can be crushing. What makes you feel that your life is pathetic?

There are a lot of things. I do not know where and more importantly how to begin. Health, job, money, visa you name it. Life has deprived me of everything. It is only death that is left now.

 

[Sensei]

There are a lot of things. I do not know where and more importantly how to begin. Health, job, money, visa you name it. Life has deprived me of everything. It is only death that is left now.

I assume your problems with your health and probably also your visa are out of your control, but what about employment and money? Could those problems be solved, at least in theory? Besides, do employment and money problems really make your life pathetic, as you word it? You're far from the only one with such problems.

 

[revolucion]

I assume your problems with your health and probably also your visa are out of your control, but what about employment and money? Could those problems be solved, at least in theory? Besides, do employment and money problems really make your life pathetic, as you word it? You're far from the only one with such problems.

I am not bothered about my employment or money. I do not consider them as my issues. I am going to CTB because of my failing health. I am tired of days to come and I am tired of yesterday. Gotta be an end to it. The end is my end. The end is my death.

 

[revolucion]

Don't do anything impulsive, do you have a solid plan?

Kind of.

 

[Mr2005]

I wish that was my only regret.

 

[BlackPoppet]

The only regret I have left in my life is that I still have not killed myself. I am amazed at how pathetic my life is and I am still here. I am low as hell and whatever that is in me, like my soul or brain or mind or whatever that semi degraded piece in me that you want to name begs for death. It is only death and the thought of it that calms me down. I am tired of everything around me and that includes myself the most. I did a lot for a good life but the thing is life is not for everyone. I quit!

 

[bpdandme]

I'm sorry, I feel this too

 

[revolucion]

Me too!

Hmm. I more than know that feeling.

I wish that was my only regret.

Well I've a lot but this one act of not kms tips the list.

I'm sorry, I feel this too

Life ain't for everyone I guess. Too hard to just live. Forget about everything else.

Sorry revolucion, I don't think "kind of" is a solid plan. It's not easy to CTB and some people end up fucking themselves up. Sounds like you haven't 'quit' just yet.

I do. Maybe I should PM you.