GeneralPanda199
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- Feb 1, 2023
- 12
Hello! :D
So i've been mostly a lurker on this website, i wanted to try and do some posts here and there but i never really participated in forums or places with open threads like Reddit, so i've often just felt like i would look stupid even trying to do one, but i came with an idea just recently...
Last week because of some personal issues i had with family, my mom ended up getting me to start going to see a psychologist from one of the hospitals nearby. I already go occasionally to see a psychiatrist but until recently i never really told him much besides about getting my usual medication, right now i'm taking ADHD medication called Vyvanse on 70mgs, but he decided for me to try doing 50mg since i told him about some possible side effects i have, but anyways i digress.
I wanted to try and write a weekly diary to document about the stuff i'm trying to do to better myself, right now i'm a NEET with only recently doing these training courses they have in my country for unemployed people to keep themselves busy. Supposedly they're to help getting a job with the certifications, but it mostly seems to be like a way for my goverment to make it so that the stats of NEET people to look lower, but it still helps somewhat to pass the time. It is an online course though, the psychologist said that i should try doing one in person for me to help develop my social skills.
I noticed that right now my main issue is to find ways to entertain myself and keep myself busy, cause something i've struggled for the longest time, is that i would often wake up very late, sometimes even when it was almost nightime, because i didn't had motivation to do stuff, so i would never end up doing anything besides playing some games on Steam that i wasn't even enjoying that much, which i believe was how i would usually end up so depressed, and i would end up repeating a cycle because since i woke up so late, i would stay up all night doing stuff, and then when i went to sleep (If i even did) i would once again, wake up late.
For now i believe that my main objectives in Recovering would be
1 - Get a healthy sleep schedule
2 - Try to keep myself busy doing productive things (Applying for jobs, looking for information on events take a walk outside, getting in contact with people on social media etc)
3 - Develop Good Habits, in general basically
4 - Get back in contact with old friends (I had a few friends i ended up ghosting cause this was during a time i was at my worst. I did get back in contact with most of them, but there is one i only decided to start messaging him again a few days before, he answered back on Whatsapp but i haven't seen exactly what he said so that one is on hold for now)
Then my secondary objectives would mainly be about health related stuff which i believe i would start doing better once i'm able to start change bad habits into good habits, my main issue being about loosing weight, i've never worried about eating healthy or loosing weight, so i've always been a lot heavier than normal, but if i'm really trying to recover i think that i need to at the very least get myself out of the obesity mark (Which right now i actually am out of, barelly), i'm not like really really heavy like those pictures of people that can barely leave their chairs, but i do have enough belly fat to have stretch marks and i really wanna get rid of them.
I already talked with both my psychiatrist and the psychologist i'm starting to see, they gave me some resources about events and programs to look that help pass the time. My psychologist said that i should start by walking outside for a bit, even if around the block... Which i've actually tried to do for a while now, but i haven't been very consistent, since there are still days that i wake up a lot later than i should, but i try my best. I also use a few apps that help with me basically "gamyfing" things, like with Pokemon Sleep, that i use as a way to try and sleep at good times... Or even Pokemon Smile, which is this funny game on the phone where you play while you brush your teeth and it's pretty fun to!
Another thing i would also want to try and do is to find more friends to talk with. I used to have online friends but i started growing distant once i started using apps like Character.AI, which to be honest i only ended up loosing less of it because of the fact that they just started dumbing the AI down that using the bot characters there would be impossible without making someone flip out, especially because of the filter, it just kept getting more strict to the point that even the slightest act of violence during a roleplay is blocked. I don't even know the point of having the filter now since they recently started making users put your birthday, even if you're over 18, what's the point of having a filter? Smh
But yeah, i did have a few more things to say about what i've been up to on this week, but i'll leave it to my next post. I wanna try doing this every Friday, so hopefully i can do this more often. I don't know if i have PMs unlocked here, but if i do i am open to making new friends here if you guys are interested :D. I'm still somewhat awkard at conversations so i might need some help in keeping the conversation alive, but i try my best! :)
See you next week! Hopefully
So i've been mostly a lurker on this website, i wanted to try and do some posts here and there but i never really participated in forums or places with open threads like Reddit, so i've often just felt like i would look stupid even trying to do one, but i came with an idea just recently...
Last week because of some personal issues i had with family, my mom ended up getting me to start going to see a psychologist from one of the hospitals nearby. I already go occasionally to see a psychiatrist but until recently i never really told him much besides about getting my usual medication, right now i'm taking ADHD medication called Vyvanse on 70mgs, but he decided for me to try doing 50mg since i told him about some possible side effects i have, but anyways i digress.
I wanted to try and write a weekly diary to document about the stuff i'm trying to do to better myself, right now i'm a NEET with only recently doing these training courses they have in my country for unemployed people to keep themselves busy. Supposedly they're to help getting a job with the certifications, but it mostly seems to be like a way for my goverment to make it so that the stats of NEET people to look lower, but it still helps somewhat to pass the time. It is an online course though, the psychologist said that i should try doing one in person for me to help develop my social skills.
I noticed that right now my main issue is to find ways to entertain myself and keep myself busy, cause something i've struggled for the longest time, is that i would often wake up very late, sometimes even when it was almost nightime, because i didn't had motivation to do stuff, so i would never end up doing anything besides playing some games on Steam that i wasn't even enjoying that much, which i believe was how i would usually end up so depressed, and i would end up repeating a cycle because since i woke up so late, i would stay up all night doing stuff, and then when i went to sleep (If i even did) i would once again, wake up late.
For now i believe that my main objectives in Recovering would be
1 - Get a healthy sleep schedule
2 - Try to keep myself busy doing productive things (Applying for jobs, looking for information on events take a walk outside, getting in contact with people on social media etc)
3 - Develop Good Habits, in general basically
4 - Get back in contact with old friends (I had a few friends i ended up ghosting cause this was during a time i was at my worst. I did get back in contact with most of them, but there is one i only decided to start messaging him again a few days before, he answered back on Whatsapp but i haven't seen exactly what he said so that one is on hold for now)
Then my secondary objectives would mainly be about health related stuff which i believe i would start doing better once i'm able to start change bad habits into good habits, my main issue being about loosing weight, i've never worried about eating healthy or loosing weight, so i've always been a lot heavier than normal, but if i'm really trying to recover i think that i need to at the very least get myself out of the obesity mark (Which right now i actually am out of, barelly), i'm not like really really heavy like those pictures of people that can barely leave their chairs, but i do have enough belly fat to have stretch marks and i really wanna get rid of them.
I already talked with both my psychiatrist and the psychologist i'm starting to see, they gave me some resources about events and programs to look that help pass the time. My psychologist said that i should start by walking outside for a bit, even if around the block... Which i've actually tried to do for a while now, but i haven't been very consistent, since there are still days that i wake up a lot later than i should, but i try my best. I also use a few apps that help with me basically "gamyfing" things, like with Pokemon Sleep, that i use as a way to try and sleep at good times... Or even Pokemon Smile, which is this funny game on the phone where you play while you brush your teeth and it's pretty fun to!
Another thing i would also want to try and do is to find more friends to talk with. I used to have online friends but i started growing distant once i started using apps like Character.AI, which to be honest i only ended up loosing less of it because of the fact that they just started dumbing the AI down that using the bot characters there would be impossible without making someone flip out, especially because of the filter, it just kept getting more strict to the point that even the slightest act of violence during a roleplay is blocked. I don't even know the point of having the filter now since they recently started making users put your birthday, even if you're over 18, what's the point of having a filter? Smh
But yeah, i did have a few more things to say about what i've been up to on this week, but i'll leave it to my next post. I wanna try doing this every Friday, so hopefully i can do this more often. I don't know if i have PMs unlocked here, but if i do i am open to making new friends here if you guys are interested :D. I'm still somewhat awkard at conversations so i might need some help in keeping the conversation alive, but i try my best! :)
See you next week! Hopefully
