i wonder if i ask them would you go through six hours of the most extreme pain and torture for your 'nature walks', 'hot chocolate' and 'good architecture' . just 6 hours or even 6 minutes i doubt it. what about 6 years of every second the worst pain imaginable ?
all that garbage 'nature walks', 'hot chocolate' and 'good architecture' and similar bs is meaningless anyway even if there weren't pain so bad 1 minute of it makes everything else meaningless. even if there were no suffering all that crap is meaningless. i don't need nor want any of those meaningless pleasurable addictions. but there is pain there is suffering there is torture so bad that even seeing someone else go through with it is unbearable much less to be immersed in that hell. you don't want 1 second of the worst life of the worst torture much less a day or 60 years of it which is very possible to any sentient creature as we all have the same torture mechanism a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain
i don't see any objective reason to have to live another minute. i see every reason for me to exit this hellscape nightmare asap
boggles my mind no one brings it up that they are ok with being a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain for no objective reason and to have to work so hard to exist as such and that all the meaningless bs somehow makes it worth the worst pain .
a human is a brain. a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain is a torture machine. a human is a torture machine a torture chamber but i've never seen anybody say this much less say that it's not ok to be a torture chamber .
i think the pleasurable addictions are worse than the daily mild suffering like chores problems work streess. it's the pleasurable addictions like youtube news social media that keep me distracted from reality that this is a hellscape and that i need to get working on getting my suicicide plan ready to go,. the daily mild suffering like washing clothes , cringe , boredum should give me a clue to that this is a nightmare torture waiting to happen . then there is another level of suffering like a week long bad flu where i couldn't stop coughing etc . that gave me a clue that this is utter hell. the extreme pain of me trying to do minor surgery with a needle another level of more intense pain than the bad flu gave me the insight pain is a billion times worse than you can imagine or remember. but there is pain worse than that and longer lasting constant extrreme pain extreme torture : i am afraid of this nightmare called life . closer to reality is a face of pure trerror mouth open agape in a voiceless scream of shell shocked terror like a torture victim with pieces of the skin torn off in many places : can they now enjoy a dumb nature walk or a hot choclate is that worth more torture
i think evolution and culture society movies tv shows media have programmed humans to think that all these addictions are fun and important. some might get pleausre cause repeatedly got addicted to them but they are meaningless while the extreme pain and suffering possible is much more intense and longer lasting
fuck architecture . non-existence forever is the only perfection where there can never be any suffering never any pain , the only bliss