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Vasy93

Vasy93

we are dead without dying
Nov 22, 2021
104
Hi, what's your main reason you want to kill yourself?
 
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OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
I can't accept that I will never go back in time and approach my crush in high school.
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,470
6 different health problems affect my ability to work and limit what i can do in my social life. pain, low mood, mobility, finance problems, low energy, cognitive decline, forgetful. dislocated shoulder decayed teeth damaged stomach lining, tinnitus, brain injury, schizophrenia, my life is a complete disaster.
 
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Death is beautiful

Death is beautiful

Warlock
May 20, 2021
792
I want to get into a warm nothingness and live there:love::love:
 
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existtosuffer

existtosuffer

Student
Sep 22, 2021
150
I have an incurable mental illness that has been made worse through medication. I have pretty much experienced everything I want to in life, and I know it won't get any better because there are no cures. The only way this suffering will stop is death. That is how shit psychiatric medicine is.
 
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ForestFauna

New Member
Dec 5, 2021
2
Gender dysphoria. Severe mental illness, passed on to me by abusive mentally ill parents. Though mine is exponentially worse. I hate being a human being. I hate being made out of flesh and bone.
 
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Rayzieka

Rayzieka

Not Really Here
Apr 28, 2021
637
Schizophrenia and the fear of hurting others.
 
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Anxieyote

Anxieyote

Sobriety over everything else • 31 • Midwest
Mar 24, 2021
444
The sting of regret and realizing that my life could have been pretty easy if I hadn't been so timid and taken more chances when I was young. A lot of opportunities have passed me by, and I'm very bad at managing my life in general. It hurts thinking about what could've been.
 
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healthrecovery

Specialist
Sep 25, 2021
378
I have an incurable mental illness that has been made worse through medication. I have pretty much experienced everything I want to in life, and I know it won't get any better because there are no cures. The only way this suffering will stop is death. That is how shit psychiatric medicine is.
Same here got anti psychotic injections and got brain damage from em..made everything worse now suicide is the only way out
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,561
My brain is absolute poop and the fact that life is simply so pointless.
 
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Broadland

Broadland

Philosophical zombie
Nov 2, 2021
20
Gender dysphoria. Severe mental illness, passed on to me by abusive mentally ill parents. Though mine is exponentially worse. I hate being a human being. I hate being made out of flesh and bone.
I'm sorry. Gender dysphoria is horrible. Even worse when you also have severe mental illnesses.
There hasn't been a moment in my life since I turned 13 where I've actually felt comfortable in my body, let alone my own mind.
 
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thefoodispoison

Student
Oct 14, 2021
108
I have treatment-resistant depression and have wanted to die for over twenty years. I've experienced the trauma of parental abandonment, religious/homophobic trauma, rape, physical assault, and the parental abandonment retriggered by abandonment by other people I trusted. My doctors ask about PTSD/C-PTSD when I reveal my history to them. I've tried over half a dozen treatments and so far nothing has worked. It's exhausting.

I have to take care of my mom, who has untreated schizophrenia, when I can barely take care of myself. That will only get harder, not easier. She is never going into remission again, and is incapable of basic tasks or comprehension.

I also lost some close, long-term friends because of conflict that I think we both contributed to -- but they won't apologize or admit any fault, even after I have. I'm very lonely, at a time when I need support more than ever.
 
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Vasy93

Vasy93

we are dead without dying
Nov 22, 2021
104
I used a drug called modafinil to pass an exam, but unfortunately my thoughts about killing myself are worse.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,393
I simply hate being alive. Life itself is the problem. I want nothing to do with life, I did not ask to be here, I was perfectly fine not existing until I was forced to live. I see existence as being suffering. Life bothers me and it hurts me being alive. I see consciousness as a prison, I dislike experiencing things, thinking and feeling, I just want to be nothing, I belong in the nothingness. I need to ctb to prevent decades of suffering. I think wanting to die is perfectly rational in such a horrible world like this.
 
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healthrecovery

Specialist
Sep 25, 2021
378
I used a drug called modafinil to pass an exam, but unfortunately my thoughts about killing myself are worse.
You should try changing other things in your life before CTB
 
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Fera18

Member
Feb 10, 2021
17
because I'm tired of living, I hope to leave and never come back
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I spent decades ruining opportunities and it's too late to get back on track. The future is worse than bleak - Misery, frustration, Humiliation…
 
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StarryStarry

StarryStarry

Cat Lady
Oct 25, 2021
749
Hi, what's your main reason you want to kill yourself?
Great question. (1) I have no family; (2) I have no friends; (3) no one gives a shit if I live or die; (4) no job; (5) I'm older and have nothing to look forward to in my "future." Thank you for asking.
 
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these_days9

these_days9

Specialist
Dec 25, 2019
338
Simple. Because I'm alive. Similar to @FuneralCry I didn't choose to be here so I think I should get to choose to opt out.
 
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Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,876
Main issue is finances. But the complete list is near-endless.
 
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LucieInTheDark

LucieInTheDark

Menhera girl
Aug 3, 2021
70
Abusive mother, trauma, gender dysphoria, depression, regret that I didn't transition in high school, witnessing one of my friends committing suicide, lack of ability to find and keep a job and being an overall failure in uni and in life. I wish I could be a functional member of society but my brain isn't wired to function in capitalism
 
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wanttogetonthebus

wanttogetonthebus

chronically unlucky
Nov 27, 2021
405
6 different health problems affect my ability to work and limit what i can do in my social life. pain, low mood, mobility, finance problems, low energy, cognitive decline, forgetful. dislocated shoulder decayed teeth damaged stomach lining, tinnitus, brain injury, schizophrenia, my life is a complete disaster.
I'm so sorry. A bad stroke of luck gave this once happy, healthy, and full-of-life young adult a chronic health condition almost overnight. I have terrible tinnitus too 😭 I can barely sleep at all anymore. I just want my old life back.
 
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