Discussion Reasons for CTB

[KadathianStr1d3r]

Why do you want to CTB?
I always keep asking myself this everyday to later conclude that such an option for the current predicament I am under right now would be the best action to resolve the situation.
But recently though I stop asking why I want to CTB but instead I have been asking How did I end up wanting to end this misery?
From what i discovered makes me want to cling to that eternal sleep much more than ever before, so then Ill ask you guys again, Why do you want to CTB and How did those reasons came to be?

 

[Smilla]

39, intractable depression, possibly facing early onset dementia, alone,
misanthropic, no desire left, disillusioned, disenchanted, ptsd from trauma (flashbacks, nightmares), existential debilitating angst, self loathing, hate society and its rules/rituals/talking heads, am a burden.

 

[tevati]

It was already over before it started.

 

[Smilla]

It was already over before it started.

Oh and this.

 

[StillWaiting]

I don't want to see myself turning insane. Feel like I am closer to losing my sanity everyday

 

[Trashcan]

I have depression, anxiety, want to avoid aging, no future, and am simply tired of life.

 

[Tyuiop]

I believe this is a dream and I want to wake up. Sort of like a time machine, to go back to the past. I asked God for signs, and he gave me signs - I've experienced dreams coming true, and other things that make me think this isn't reality. And otherwise I'm pretty miserable now, I've ruined my life and there's no way to fix it. Depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia... Whatever is it's name, I think it's really a demon inside me.

 

[MAIO]

Why do you want to CTB?
I always keep asking myself this everyday to later conclude that such an option for the current predicament I am under right now would be the best action to resolve the situation.
But recently though I stop asking why I want to CTB but instead I have been asking How did I end up wanting to end this misery?
From what i discovered makes me want to cling to that eternal sleep much more than ever before, so then Ill ask you guys again, Why do you want to CTB and How did those reasons came to be?
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I know for sure if I was never born I would not want to ctb.

 

[DariaBuPL]

People just hurt me so much, I can't deal with it anymore. I disappoint my family so much. I don't even have a normal future on this world, so there's no point to deal with it.

 

[Vegrau]

I am just bored of life. I wont play in someone else's game. By their rules and under them. Also it's not worth the efforts nor the pain. I have no reason to suffer and toil for something this meaningless. Life is all about finding meaning assigning reasons to this pointless existence I just dont want to play anymore of this. What for? I wont get prize at the end. All my suffering are for naught. All this strife are for future that has no meaning. Every dreams and agonies will become past. Its just logic.

 

[worldexploder]

I literally have no reason to live. I got incurable lifelong mental illnesses, a horrible life, I am unable to function a normal adult, and I lost pretty much everything. No matter how hard I tried I just never got anywhere. If I don't CTBA things will continue to get worse.

 

[Phade]

I have borderline personality disorder and the emotions and feelings about abandonment and everything else that go along with it are so intense it's literally just a matter of time. Just a waiting game. Today has been close even. My fiancé was almost out of the door but is now depressed upstairs and might not leave. After a bit of verbal abuse from her it might just be some swigs of alcohol and do it regardless but it becomes easier when she leaves to be fair.

The disorder is going to be the reason why I ctb and it's just a matter of time. The shotgun is waiting with one 3" slug in the box. I've held it in position and clicked the empty gun multiple times. I'm ready.

 

[Sinbad]

More than 13 reasons why

 

[Xerxes]

I don't want to be known as a survivor of trauma or abuse, because I did not survive mentally. Chronic depression since I was 12, chronic suicidal idealation since 14, irrational thinking and prone to outbursts. I'm in a catch-22 because I don't want to hurt anymore people that I hold dearly until they break that connection with me. Then I can be free from this world.

 

[Dwellinglifeless]

The world is a cursed place. Humans are a virus that will never be remedied. My mind and body are a prison and not a temple. I have made horrible mistakes that have cost me the most important people in my life. Overall I am simply not equipped to function in the world in the way that one is expected to.

 

[Going Home]

Joseph Emanuel, City of Amsterdam, NY
Angelo Santa barbara, City of Amsterdam, NY
Perverted Dr. Dan, New York
Jim Nelligar, Cohoes, New York
Mary Peck, State of New York
And other random bullies around.
If you really want to know.

 

[peacefully31425]

I'm terribly depressed and have no motivation to fix the problems around me.

 

[Bandzbandz]

I've turned myself into a monster and I dont think I deserve to live anymore.

 

[Crazy I]

Well my reason is boredom and society, its too boring to live, i no longer have any goals in life and theres this feeling that told me i need to disappear before 25, oh and also this shitty society i grew up on.