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Outofhope
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- Feb 19, 2021
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I'm 23. And already spent a combined 20 months in prison.
I Have terrible schizophrenia and no friends. I'm in love with someone who utterly hates me.
My childhood was filled with sexual, emotional and physical abuse and relentless bullying at school.
I've had two failed attempts so far, sleeping pills OD (more of a cry for help).
And partial hanging (ligature broke).
My next attempt will be to jump off a bridge as I can't source SN or N.
The only time I ever 'fit in' was In prison or a psych ward. Only contact with people I have are delivery drivers, and a few people online I'm 'friends' with.
(I've never met as I'm too ugly and insane and they'd run a mile)
I'm pathetic.
In the last 24 hours I've been hallucinating and I feel like I'm going insane. I'm under so much emotional pain and I can't take it anymore.
I've not had a single friend since I was 14 and I'm full of hated and anger to the world.
Worse part is I've had great opportunities and every time I've blown it. I can't be relied upon and I do nothing good.
There is no hope of anything getting better.
I'm tired and just want to sleep forever.
I Have terrible schizophrenia and no friends. I'm in love with someone who utterly hates me.
My childhood was filled with sexual, emotional and physical abuse and relentless bullying at school.
I've had two failed attempts so far, sleeping pills OD (more of a cry for help).
And partial hanging (ligature broke).
My next attempt will be to jump off a bridge as I can't source SN or N.
The only time I ever 'fit in' was In prison or a psych ward. Only contact with people I have are delivery drivers, and a few people online I'm 'friends' with.
(I've never met as I'm too ugly and insane and they'd run a mile)
I'm pathetic.
In the last 24 hours I've been hallucinating and I feel like I'm going insane. I'm under so much emotional pain and I can't take it anymore.
I've not had a single friend since I was 14 and I'm full of hated and anger to the world.
Worse part is I've had great opportunities and every time I've blown it. I can't be relied upon and I do nothing good.
There is no hope of anything getting better.
I'm tired and just want to sleep forever.
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