Discussion Reason to die: just don't want to be here

[rg145612]

Hello everyone,

I have a question for all of you today. People may have different reasons to die, but, anyone in particular has that feeling of not wanting to be here anymore? I mean, there's nothing wrong with your life at all, is the fact that you just don't want to be here.

Have any of you had this type of feeling? I want to know if is it just me or is something more common.

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

No, you're not alone. I don't want anything more to do with this world either. Happiness has little if anything to do with the particular hardships endured in life. Hence you see many wealthy, successful, physically healthy celebrity icons ending their lives prematurely, while simultaneously you may find people living in poverty, riddled with illnesses who nevertheless find life worth living. No one is obligated to provide reasons to want to live; therefore no one need give a reason for wanting to die.

 

[rg145612]

No, you're not alone. I don't want anything more to do with this world either. Happiness has little if anything to do with the particular hardships endured in life. Hence you see many wealthy, successful, physically healthy celebrity icons ending their lives prematurely, while simultaneously you may find people living in poverty, riddled with illnesses who nevertheless find life worth living. No one is obligated to provide reasons to want to live; therefore no one need give a reason for wanting to die.

I completely understand you... I don't know, for me is hard to put that feeling into words

 

[Mr. Hang Man]

This world is ugly and corrupted there is no room for people that want to do good.

 

[wanttodie]

yes dont want to be here anymore sick of life ans living dont want to live any more

 

[TheGoodGuy]

6 chronically illnesses and mental problems as well.

 

[Olach]

Don't want to live anymore because of my idiocy.
I fucked that much that i will ctb

 

[LivingToLong]

You're certainly not alone @rg145612. My life is objectively good, I really have nothing to complain about - and I don't complain. I know I am privileged when compared to most. However, I am tired now and there is nothing I look forward to. I've given up to be honest. I no longer care. There is nothing I can do to shape my world to be something more fulfilling. I am beaten in that respect. I don't particularly want to die but I see no point in continuing on living.

 

[GeorgeJL]

This world is ugly and corrupted there is no room for people that want to do good.

Something like that. If you look at the surface level of things that is what it seems like. But if you look at the hearts of people you will find that many people are actually very nice loving people if given the chance to show it. The heart of the problem comes down to where people think the boogie man is. Pessimistic people say the boogie man is here or there. You know us versus them kind of mentality. But mature smart people realize that the boogie man is ignorance itself which is much more fundamental than pointing a finger at some person or group.

Where did I learn this? The Buddha, because he taught that ignorance is the cause of suffering.

 

[ZiggyStardust]

reassuring to know I am not alone feeling that way - can't put my finger on it or lay blame to any circumstances

 

[LivingToLong]

But if you look at the hearts of people you will find that many people are actually very nice loving people if given the chance to show it.

I think so too. Like plants they need the right soil, feeding and watering if they are to bloom and be all they can be. I don't think our society allows for that. Poverty forces people into environments where they struggle to survive let alone thrive.

 

[GeorgeJL]

I think so too. Like plants they need the right soil, feeding and watering if they are to bloom and be all they can be. I don't think our society allows for that. Poverty forces people into environments where they struggle to survive let alone thrive.

UBI will likely become law soon in the coming years or decades. With that Americans will get $1,000 dollars a month. So things will get better. Automation is the new oil which will free humanity to work on themselves and their family.

 

[LivingToLong]

UBI will likely become law soon in the coming years or decades.

I have high hopes for UBI. There's a lot of opposition, people seeing it as 'money for nothing' and thinking it'll just encourage 'scroungers' and laziness. Personally, I see it as giving people dignity and some choice.

 

[GeorgeJL]

I have high hopes for UBI. There's a lot of opposition, people seeing it as 'money for nothing' and thinking it'll just encourage 'scroungers' and laziness. Personally, I see it as giving people dignity and some choice.

Yeah the thing is that it's not enough for most people to want to quit their jobs. Most people will keep their jobs on top of the UBI. Besides people are not inherently lazy. Most people like a challenge. Even the people that bum around the house for years eventually end up breaking out of that funk.

 

[Partial-Elf]

I'd say I fall into this camp as well. When I came to terms with death as complete nonbeing, I had to ask myself if being is worth the pain and trouble.

My conclusion is generally no, even though I am physically healthy and with a stable career and relatively young. The anxiety and regret I feel make it not worth the small amounts of reward, plus I don't foresee a future that gets too much better.

 

[DrownedOctopus]

Hello everyone,

I have a question for all of you today. People may have different reasons to die, but, anyone in particular has that feeling of not wanting to be here anymore? I mean, there's nothing wrong with your life at all, is the fact that you just don't want to be here.

Have any of you had this type of feeling? I want to know if is it just me or is something more common.

You're definitely not alone. This is exactly how I feel , no rhyme or reason for it, and have felt it all my life.
Everything could be going well, I could be having fun, I could be staring at my daughter while she is smiling and giggling up at me..and still my mind is stuck on ctb.

 

[I am ___________]

This world is ugly and corrupted there is no room for people that want to do good.

I agree 100%
I have known for a long time that I do not belong here, having a shitty family and being treated like shit for a very long time only makes the feelings stronger. I long to be rid of this existence. I hate this world with my entire being and reject it. Life is not a gift, it is a curse.... and one passed on from generation to generation.

 

[nooo2]

Yeah 100%. This world is corrupted and it's ugly, the thought of our society makes me sick to my stomach and is the main reason I'm going to ctb.
I don't want help from anyone to cure my depression, I don't care to be happy anymore I just want out of this disgusting but beautiful world.

 

[GeorgeJL]

I agree 100%
I have known for a long time that I do not belong here, having a shitty family and being treated like shit for a very long time only makes the feelings stronger. I long to be rid of this existence. I hate this world with my entire being and reject it. Life is not a gift, it is a curse.... and one passed on from generation to generation.

Yeah 100%. This world is corrupted and it's ugly, the thought of our society makes me sick to my stomach and is the main reason I'm going to ctb.
I don't want help from anyone to cure my depression, I don't care to be happy anymore I just want out of this disgusting but beautiful world.

There is an infinite amount of evil in this world and an infinite amount of good in this world. What do you want to focus on?

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

My need to CTB is not only because I feel like shit but I see it as a preventative measure - I may feel good some days but I'd rather not run the risk of coming back to this. I'd just like to have zero chance at all, rather than uncertainty over my future.

 

[I am ___________]

There is an infinite amount of evil in this world and an infinite amount of good in this world. What do you want to focus on?

Then you don't see the world as I do, there is no good in this world. Good and evil essentially do not exist, they are an idea, an unproved concept upon which society operates and deems whether or not something is acceptable in their eyes or not. If I could swap out my glasses with some sugar and rainbow tinted glasses and all my problems would go away, I would but that is nothing but pure nonsense and fiction. From a logical stand point, there is more evil then good in this pit hole of existence. From pollution, to wars over absolute nothing, it only gets more worse as time passes on. History is the only proof I need in order to validate this statement.
Good and evil are decided upon by the individual, morality. From where I stand there is no good, but a great deal of evil. Your perspective might be different, however that is from your own stand point. Neither one of us are incorrect.

 

[rg145612]

You're certainly not alone @rg145612. My life is objectively good, I really have nothing to complain about - and I don't complain. I know I am privileged when compared to most. However, I am tired now and there is nothing I look forward to. I've given up to be honest. I no longer care. There is nothing I can do to shape my world to be something more fulfilling. I am beaten in that respect. I don't particularly want to die but I see no point in continuing on living.

Yes yes, I feel EXACTLY the same @LivingToLong Nothing is going wrong but everything seems to be pointless

 

[EphemeralDream]

Mix of apathy and depression. Bad combination. I can't find interest or joy from things that used to be important to me. I'm empty and exhausted.

 

[rg145612]

You're definitely not alone. This is exactly how I feel , no rhyme or reason for it, and have felt it all my life.
Everything could be going well, I could be having fun, I could be staring at my daughter while she is smiling and giggling up at me..and still my mind is stuck on ctb.

I get you

 

[GeorgeJL]

Then you don't see the world as I do, there is no good in this world. Good and evil essentially do not exist, they are an idea, an unproved concept upon which society operates and deems whether or not something is acceptable in their eyes or not. If I could swap out my glasses with some sugar and rainbow tinted glasses and all my problems would go away, I would but that is nothing but pure nonsense and fiction. From a logical stand point, there is more evil then good in this pit hole of existence. From pollution, to wars over absolute nothing, it only gets more worse as time passes on. History is the only proof I need in order to validate this statement.
Good and evil are decided upon by the individual, morality. From where I stand there is no good, but a great deal of evil. Your perspective might be different, however that is from your own stand point. Neither one of us are incorrect.

I agree with you for the most part. But one of the top intellectuals says that violence has actually gone down even if you include WWII. He even wrote a book about did some videos about it.

The Surprising Decline In Violence

The surprising decline in violence

Steven Pinker charts the decline of violence from Biblical times to the present, and argues that, though it may seem illogical and even obscene, given Iraq and Darfur, we are living in the most peaceful time in our species' existence.

www.ted.com

It's deceiving to see the news because they only focus on the bad.

 

[ZiggyStardust]

You're definitely not alone. This is exactly how I feel , no rhyme or reason for it, and have felt it all my life.
Everything could be going well, I could be having fun, I could be staring at my daughter while she is smiling and giggling up at me..and still my mind is stuck on ctb.

yes, this - 1000 times over.

 

[Jackd]

Hello everyone,

I have a question for all of you today. People may have different reasons to die, but, anyone in particular has that feeling of not wanting to be here anymore? I mean, there's nothing wrong with your life at all, is the fact that you just don't want to be here.

Have any of you had this type of feeling? I want to know if is it just me or is something more common.

I can definitely relate to you. I've been feeling like that fro

Hello everyone,

I have a question for all of you today. People may have different reasons to die, but, anyone in particular has that feeling of not wanting to be here anymore? I mean, there's nothing wrong with your life at all, is the fact that you just don't want to be here.

Have any of you had this type of feeling? I want to know if is it just me or is something more common.

I definitely feel the exact way as you. Everyday for the last 7 years I wake up, like why am I still here? Life is not bad but it's too repetitive. For ex. I can't for the life of me see why some people wanna live til there 70s and longer. Like every year of your life is literally almost the same more or less. I can't understand why some people are proud of doing the same thing for like 25,30 40 years etc..
More power to ppl who can be in love with doing the same ish over & over. I even moved to a different state and new job to see if maybe that would help me not think life is pointless, after like 5 months felt the same. To sum it up, I came to conclusion this world is not for me after 30 odd years of experiencing it so I plan to ctb this year. I did majority of the stuff in life I wanted to do.

 

[Volomori83]

Yeah I'm definitely in the same camp as you. I've got a good job, close friends, a parent and a sibling who love me. Still I have no desire to continue with existence. There's no catalyst, no reason, no logic to how I feel, only a coming to terms with the fact I'm going to die very soon. Non-existence is a terrifying idea but a simple reality. Life itself is a far scarier and futile reality than death in my mind.

 

[Umbra]

This is me 100%. I'm not depressed and I'd call my life above average in quality but I often see little reason to continue. I guess I'm more indifferent on whether I live or not.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

This is an old thread but yeah. It turned from immense suffering for a long time to a simple 'meh'. Seriously if anyone were to ask me why I'm gonna do it I would struggle for an answer. My life isn't great, there are definitely concrete things I'm lacking but all in all it's more a general attitude of 'meh' towards existence which has gradually set in from disappointment and disillusionment, so that now there's nothing I really want out of this life anymore; and if nothing seems worth attaining and not much seems attainable anyway then the amount of suffering I have to go through simply to sustain this 'meh' it just seems rational to end it.