Really lonely

[TheHatedOne]

It's been almost 4 months since you suddenly stopped replying to me. I'm still thinking about you so often and wish we were still best friends and talk daily. I know you didn't die because I saw you're still active on Reddit. You were probably still upset about that day when I was mean to you and I'm still really sorry for it, I was really angry back then and I can't control myself when I'm angry. Even though last times when we talked you were really friendly to me and never mentioned that happening again. It doesn't make sense for why you ghosted me, it's not in your type. You are a very honest and straightforward person. Maybe you needed a break from everything. Maybe you just wanted to get rid of me which is the most probable case. But I still can't help but miss you, my heart cries for you daily.

I remember when we got in touch again, a while after I did that mean thing to you. When you messaged me back I cried. I cried of happiness and felt a comforting wave of warmth overwhelm me. Even now as I write this kind of letter I feel a similar wave of warmth.

You were like a parental figure for me, something I never had before. It's understandable since you were a bit older than me. I loved when you gave me advices. You were so caring. You were so understanding. Other people found my paranoia offensive, but you understood it. I remember when I had a moment of doubting you told me that it's okay, people hurt me so it's understandable to be wary of them.

You had it 10x worse than me but I will always admire you for how you turned your life around. You had such amazing humour, very similar to George Carlin. You were simply wonderful. I wish I had the chance to hug you because you really deserve it. I still remember one of your dreams, me and you living in a house far away from people and the world. That really warmed my heart.

But today it's all gone to shit for reasons unknown to me.

Others say to move on but I'll never be able to. I can only fantasize about you writing to me again, that's actually what I do often. I've written so many messages to you but that didn't amount to anything, I stopped doing it since it's pointless. I might write again on your birthday to wish you happy birthday. But it's over... forever...

I'm sorry my best friend.

 

[Trueform]

It's been almost 4 months since you suddenly stopped replying to me. I'm still thinking about you so often and wish we were still best friends and talk daily. I know you didn't die because I saw you're still active on Reddit. You were probably still upset about that day when I was mean to you and I'm still really sorry for it, I was really angry back then and I can't control myself when I'm angry. Even though last times when we talked you were really friendly to me and never mentioned that happening again. It doesn't make sense for why you ghosted me, it's not in your type. You are a very honest and straightforward person. Maybe you needed a break from everything. Maybe you just wanted to get rid of me which is the most probable case. But I still can't help but miss you, my heart cries for you daily.

I remember when we got in touch again, a while after I did that mean thing to you. When you messaged me back I cried. I cried of happiness and felt a comforting wave of warmth overwhelm me. Even now as I write this kind of letter I feel a similar wave of warmth.

You were like a parental figure for me, something I never had before. It's understandable since you were a bit older than me. I loved when you gave me advices. You were so caring. You were so understanding. Other people found my paranoia offensive, but you understood it. I remember when I had a moment of doubting you told me that it's okay, people hurt me so it's understandable to be wary of them.

You had it 10x worse than me but I will always admire you for how you turned your life around. You had such amazing humour, very similar to George Carlin. You were simply wonderful. I wish I had the chance to hug you because you really deserve it. I still remember one of your dreams, me and you living in a house far away from people and the world. That really warmed my heart.

But today it's all gone to shit for reasons unknown to me.

Others say to move on but I'll never be able to. I can only fantasize about you writing to me again, that's actually what I do often. I've written so many messages to you but that didn't amount to anything, I stopped doing it since it's pointless. I might write again on your birthday to wish you happy birthday. But it's over... forever...

I'm sorry my best friend.

Brutal, friendships don't exist in nature tho. So I'm not even surprised that he left you cold like that. Hope you will recover I guess.

 

[ikadasui]

I won't pretend to know what you're going through, but for what it's worth this stranger online enjoys seeing you around. I hope you find peace, friend.

 

[forgotten15]

Why don't you send this to your friend? Maybe being honest about your feelings will help you two reconnect. In my opinion you have nothing to loose if you do so, it's worth a try maybe :) I wish you well!

 

[TheHatedOne]

Why don't you send this to your friend? Maybe being honest about your feelings will help you two reconnect. In my opinion you have nothing to loose if you do so, it's worth a try maybe :) I wish you well!

because i've already sent many messages to him throughout these months, it would be pointless.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Kind of in the same boat. Except the person I lost was that one great love of my life. 4 years of being around someone who was so much like me it was actually healing me and driving me to make my life better. That's gone now. Her, her daughter, my little family that was so perfect. Before the outsiders destroyed our relationship it was such a beautiful thing....

 

[FuneralCry]

It is painful to lose those who we were close to, even as time passes we still have the memories, they never go away and we can never forget. I'm sorry you are going through this, I wish you peace.

 

[Fera18]

Han pasado casi 4 meses desde que de repente dejaste de responderme. Todavía estoy pensando en ti tan a menudo y deseo que sigamos siendo mejores amigos y hablemos todos los días. Sé que no moriste porque vi que todavía estás activo en Reddit. Probablemente todavía estabas molesto por ese día cuando fui malo contigo y todavía lo lamento mucho, estaba realmente enojado en ese entonces y no puedo controlarme cuando estoy enojado. A pesar de que las últimas veces cuando hablamos fuiste muy amable conmigo y nunca mencionaste que eso sucediera nuevamente. No tiene sentido por qué me engañaste, no es de tu tipo. Eres una persona muy honesta y sencilla. Quizás necesitabas un descanso de todo. Quizás solo querías deshacerte de mí, que es el caso más probable. Pero todavía no puedo evitar extrañarte, mi corazón llora por ti todos los días.

Recuerdo cuando nos volvimos a poner en contacto, un tiempo después de que yo te hiciera esa cosa mala. Cuando me respondiste, lloré. Lloré de felicidad y sentí una reconfortante ola de calor abrumarme. Incluso ahora, mientras escribo este tipo de carta, siento una ola de calidez similar.

Eras como una figura paterna para mí, algo que nunca antes había tenido. Es comprensible ya que eras un poco mayor que yo. Me encantó cuando me diste consejos. Eras tan cariñoso. Eras tan comprensivo. Otras personas encontraron mi paranoia ofensiva, pero tú lo entendiste. Recuerdo que cuando tuve un momento de dudar que me dijiste que estaba bien, la gente me lastimó, así que es comprensible desconfiar de ellos.

Lo pasaste 10 veces peor que yo, pero siempre te admiraré por cómo cambiaste tu vida. Tenías un humor increíble, muy similar al de George Carlin. Estuviste simplemente maravilloso. Ojalá tuviera la oportunidad de abrazarte porque realmente te lo mereces. Todavía recuerdo uno de tus sueños, tú y yo viviendo en una casa lejos de la gente y del mundo. Eso realmente calentó mi corazón.

Pero hoy todo se ha ido a la mierda por razones que desconozco.

Otros dicen que siga adelante, pero nunca podré hacerlo. Solo puedo fantasear con que me vuelvas a escribir, eso es lo que hago a menudo. Te he escrito tantos mensajes pero eso no sirvió para nada, dejé de hacerlo porque no tiene sentido. Podría escribir de nuevo en su cumpleaños para desearle feliz cumpleaños. Pero se acabó ... para siempre ...

Lo siento mi mejor amigo.

bueno, te entiendo, hace mucho que me pasó con un amigo, en ese momento fue difícil muy difícil, pero solo puedo decirte lo que va a pasar, todo pasa y un día sin que te des cuenta ya no te importa.
if you want you can talk to me on the chat