Ready to jump, but getting scared

[Humdinger2023]

I'm obsessed with ending my life and think about suicide most of my waking moments. I want to use a gun to end my life, but it's not really an option as I've had forced hospitalizations in the past. I don't have access to a gun and don't see myself being able to buy one. The only other option I can think of is to jump from a bridge to my death. I worry that I'm not brave enough to do this, but really see no other way to go. I can't continue and have been living in utter misery and despair. Please, someone reading this, help me find a way out. I can't continue to go on like this. I'm desperate.

 

[Sulyya]

Tell us more, if you want Why?

Jump seems frightening to me also. As with so many methods, worried about surviving and being more physically damaged.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish that we could all just have the option to pass away quickly and painlessly when the time is right for us, but sadly that's not the reality. Jumping certainly sounds like such a terrifying method to me, it must require so much courage to finally go through with it and it's just so incredibly unfair how suicide has to be so difficult. I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for as it really sounds like you've suffered so much, it certainly can be awful feeling so trapped here when you just really wish to leave.

 

[Humdinger2023]

Tell us more, if you want Why?

Jump seems frightening to me also. As with so many methods, worried about surviving and being more physically damaged.

I'm finished. I'm barely holding on right now. I have a very young daughter, the main reason as to why I haven't been able to move ahead with taking my own life and am still here. I can't stand the thought of leaving her. But I know once she gets older, she'll see the true failure that I am and will no longer love me.

Jumping seems like my only sure way out since I don't have access to firearms. I have picked out the bridge and keep envisioning myself getting close to the edge. There would be no chance of survival.

I wish that we could all just have the option to pass away quickly and painlessly when the time is right for us, but sadly that's not the reality. Jumping certainly sounds like such a terrifying method to me, it must require so much courage to finally go through with it and it's just so incredibly unfair how suicide has to be so difficult. I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for as it really sounds like you've suffered so much, it certainly can be awful feeling so trapped here when you just really wish to leave.

I wish that we could all just have the option to pass away quickly and painlessly when the time is right for us, but sadly that's not the reality. Jumping certainly sounds like such a terrifying method to me, it must require so much courage to finally go through with it and it's just so incredibly unfair how suicide has to be so difficult. I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for as it really sounds like you've suffered so much, it certainly can be awful feeling so trapped here when you just really wish to leave.

I do feel trapped and long to leave. I wish I could just put a gun to my head and it would be done. I'm scared to jump and worry I'll back out at the last minute. Thank you for writing. You seem to understand how hard this all is right now.

 

[uniqueusername39]

there are other quicker, less violent methods. they are all available on this site, you just have to look for them. insert obligatory "maybe things will get better though" line here.

 

[Sulyya]

I'm finished. I'm barely holding on right now. I have a very young daughter, the main reason as to why I haven't been able to move ahead with taking my own life and am still here. I can't stand the thought of leaving her. But I know once she gets older, she'll see the true failure that I am and will no longer love me.

Oh my... what will happen to her?
And what is your situation that you have to die? Work? Home?

 

[Humdinger2023]

Oh my... what will happen to her?
And what is your situation that you have to die? Work? Home?

She is loved and adored by our family. She has my husband.

The depression is so thick right now that I can't remember a time where I lived a normal life.

there are other quicker, less violent methods. they are all available on this site, you just have to look for them. insert obligatory "maybe things will get better though" line here.

I want to make sure it works. I don't want to mess this up.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

I'm obsessed with ending my life and think about suicide most of my waking moments. I want to use a gun to end my life, but it's not really an option as I've had forced hospitalizations in the past. I don't have access to a gun and don't see myself being able to buy one. The only other option I can think of is to jump from a bridge to my death. I worry that I'm not brave enough to do this, but really see no other way to go. I can't continue and have been living in utter misery and despair. Please, someone reading this, help me find a way out. I can't continue to go on like this. I'm desperate.

Omg this resonate with me so much it's like you wrote this for me except the judging from the bridge ( it's just not my way to go).

Every word you said is exactly how I feel right now I'm truly and deeply desperate to die. I just want to die…